I read your post and have to say that I experience the same issues.
"I have always relapsed back into processed food. Although it would seem I am perfectionsistic, it is in fact the case that I am totally dysfunctional on any cooked or processed food. I suffer horribly from anxiety and Depression when my diet is not 100% raw. I suffer when on raw food, too, since I need a real healing via total, extended water fasting, and have not yet found the support I need to achieve this; but with a raw only diet my suffering is rather less."
Despite wanting to be a 100 percent raw foodist and really believing that it's the best way to live, I can't manage to stay on it for very long. I can only manage short spurts for a month or two. I seem to always feel 'unstable' and relapse BUT I REALLY WANT TO MAKE IT LONGER and know I can...
For me, it's easier to eat less and raw after longer fasts and I STRONGLY desire to do a long fast. I read of others that have done it and wonder why I have such a hard time... I DID however manage to do an 8 day fast last December, but that was with a lot of cyber support. If I look back on any of my successful fasts and raw food spurts, I had support from internet pals. I've been trying to fast this past week and haven't managed, but am happy that I found your post because if you are serious about this, I'M serious about fasting with you. You can email me at email@example.com. I WANT to hear from you. You seem very much like me. I've been plagued by stress this past year, especially the last few months and I WANT help, but like you mentioned in your post, professionals don't understand our strong desire to eat only raw foods and to want to fast. I do, however, understand, and perhaps we can support each other through this fast and then with the raw lifestyle.
Can you also recommend a blog website? I organized a xanga community for my December fast and that worked well. I'm willing to sign up to a different website if you are already blogging somewhere.
Also, congratulations on your 100 days raw!!! If you are truly like me, managing 100 straight days with no cooked food binges is awesome.