Thank you for the much needed support. I have spent the day cleaning as a start, and have re-arrranged cupboards and things so I can have access to my board games (especially cranium) etc, so I can do fun activities at night that don't include drinking but also help get rid of the lonley feeling. I think I must have firmly made this decision this time, because I feel a sense of peace now, and I came into this group especially so I will feel a sense of accountability to not be a bad influence or bring others down with me, in the sense of drinking etc. I feel if I have others to talk to who won't be saying, "go party it up," etc as solutions to problems it will be a lot more helpful. :) Thanks again for being here.