This is my first time on this forum. Maybe you don't allow christians. I'm not sure. I just read this message and it saddened me.
What if you're wrong? I am a christian. If I am wrong then I guess my energy will reabsorb into the universe. If you're wrong you will miss out on so much. (I am not talking about scaring you with hell) What I am talking about is how you may never know the fruit of the spirit. True love, peace, joy, patience, etc. These things don't come from people. People desert you and betray you. I have found recently that even when others have hurt me terribly, they cannot take away my peace and joy because they didn't give it to me. I hope you will find comfort. Ask questions. The truth should be able to have light shone on it. You should be able to question your beliefs (whatever they are). In the end that is what makes them stronger.
If you really believe what you believe, why are you not comforted?