Re: Feeling very lonely, unappreciated

Thank you both for your insight it is greatly appreciated. It is quite ironic that Konfetti would mention giving my time to people in need. The irony is that I work in health care and long term care. My employment primarily is to speak and take care of the sick and elderly, give all my time to them as they are in need too. I listen to many things during they day and am told at the end of each day that it is appreciated. I have also volunteered a lot of my spare time to these people as I know they are in need more than I.
What I did not agree with however is a perception of me thinking of only myself when it comes to acceptance in the world and with people. When a person is rejected for so long after giving their 100% (and sometimes more!) into a relationship but it is not reciprocated, they will start thinking of themselves but in a good way. I believe that a person does need to tend to themselves better and think about themselves so they can know who they are as a person and not what they think others would want them to be. I was used for so long by people (meaning that I would go all out and try and do the things people do for each other or at least believing that is what people do for each other) but again when it is not reciprocated at all, what is a person to do? I know its wrong to dwell but again, it is all I am left with in the end.
As for lightstream's perceptions, yes I have taken a few IQ tests and I do agree with your thoughts about how people with a different or higher intelligence are left out, they do stand out and are often left to the sidelines. It is very lonely as there are not many people out there willing to expand their horizons, do not want to know much and stay ignorant. It has even got to the point where people will ask me about something and I will tell them what I know or maybe just give an opinion on it all and I think they do not understand, know what i mean or simply do not believe me - that has been said to me! I do agree that when 2 people who have the same interests regardless what it maybe, there is a great connection however, I have found a few like that, we had wonderful friendships (at least i thought so!) but in the end again, I was set aside for "better"(?) more exciting (?).
In the end, i feel i have wasted my time, effort and energy. It simply makes a person bitter. My employment is very fullfilling and I am very happy doing what i do, my clients always tell me how wonderful it is to have me around (these people by the way have no family, friends and sometimes memories)and I love them back but again, it is a workplace senario and I can not get too attached as that would be detrimental to my mental health and employment.
Thank you both again I know I am not alone and this site makes it easier,lets others know they are not alone either.
Your insight is appreciated.
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