From The Valley To The Mountain And Back Again

I guess its no secret to some people that I have been struggling with discouragement, severe Depression and fear concerning my health problems and resulting financial difficulties.

Earlier today my car broke down, it simply quit running and would not start. I managed to pull off the road, but could not use my wheelchair in the gravel. Eventually a man came to see if I needed help and pushed my heavy car to his driveway. After trying a lot of things he got the car started, but it was running very rough and the oil light was on. I went on into town, bought some more oil, and all seemed alright until I turned off the highway on to the five miles of dirt road. The car stopped on a steep hill. When I finally got it started, it would quickly die. After a long time I started to pray, I told the car to start in Jesus' name. It started and kept running, but very roughly. I prayed and praised all the way home. The car died again just as I pulled up near the front porch. This was a wonderful mountain top experience of answered prayer. However....

once again I feel overwhelmed with a spirit of fear, desperation and hopelessness. I was supposed to work this weekend, but I am afraid to drive the car in heavy traffic. I don't know how I can even begin to pay for repairs, I am beyond broke right now. I have no idea who to call or who to trust to fix the car. I hate that I have allowed myself to be drug back into the valley, but here I am. Please pray for me. I know God can help me get through all this, but I also fear that my fear and Depression is displeasing to Him, but I can't seem to do anything about it. Tweet