Some may even be shocked by how mental trauma can make a person stoop so low but here goes. It started happening some years ago. I was (i'd like to believe I'm still) the nicest person around loved by many friends. Then one miserable day I started suffering from weird allergies, halitosis and Body Odor . Friends started backing off, people passing comments and making fun made me determined to seek a solution. I ended up spending $10K in various treatments , medicines and god knows what not. During that period I became so depressed that I wanted to commit suicide but held strong. I couldn't get a girlfriend let alone talk to anyone. I shied from clubs bars and became a recluse. I visited brothels because I couldn;t get sex. At least they didn;t complain as they got money.
Now when I look back I feel disgusted at myself for visiting prostitutes and not having a girlfriend. I've recovered a lot from my problems but I still can't up my self esteem. Luckily i earned good during those periods which was the only comforting factor.
Do you think I'm disgusting? How can I get that bad phase out of my head?

How many men go to prostititutes in their entire life? And what do women think of men who have been to a brothel?

Why is casual sex with a stranger OK but sex with a prostitute is frowned upon?

Sorry about so many questions - I'm still trying to come to grips with life.