Hello Andreas,
I wanted to ask you one more thing.
First off, i am very ill... getting better
I think.... but long way to go. I think? :)
I hvae done it all, cleanses and so on, and feel that the dreams are helping
me because... at this time I have nothing else. Seen many ND;s herbalists, counselling, Md's and so on.
What I wanted to ask is... if you know of a book that
might help me to understand the 'selfs'. I am getting dreams..
messages, and again had one last night. I use my pendulm, but it does not always work for me.. it works better on other people
when I do health readings on them.
I had a message dream last night, and I dont know what it meant... i kinda do, but not sure if it is right.
I NOW! see that the ego of mine is a big thing... when it is not up I get messages... I did not know this. You worte this to me... so I would like to read about this in a good book, but dont know of one.
I have lyme disease, and near died from it 1 year ago. I have had it about 15 years, and only treated it recently...
I had been on antibiotics... for 6 months, saved my life... and had to go off cause candida becaome life threatening.
My candida symptomes now are kinda like my lyme symptoms, and I get a FEAR that the lyme is going to take over me again.
Last night after praying... i saw this in my mind while dozing off, and not sure if it was real... like God was standing at the top of a hill kinda waving, and then... I dozed off again,
and the words... in my head ... said.. or I read them...
Rid of lyme - 2004. I thought... geez, maybe I am rid of lyme now... I dont know. :(... I believe, because I had a vision 6 years ago, that possibly I am getting these messages from God, or my angel... the vision I had was broad daylight... and it was an opening in the sky, in my apartment... and i had actually gone into the spot, the oval spot in the air... and it was my meditating spot in the hills... It was a real vision, I was not nearly as sick as I was. I left this world and went into another, or soemthing like this.. After this... I just got sick and sicker, and think I did have dreams back then, but never payed attention until one year ago.
Anyways, I am sick rightnow, housebound... and thought.. i may as well learn all I can about this, cause... maybe I am meant to be sick to learn all this, for some reason.
I could be reading into this all too much, and it is tough on my mind, but I have to read into it cause I have NO other way to get well, EVERY dream I have had, has helped me.
As well, I saw a psychic medium that had told me I had lyme disease... called her about 1 year ago cause I thought my mind/body was going to shut down. This psychic woman was a friend of a friend, and my friend had payed the bill cause I was not into seeing a psychic cause I just felt it was not going to help... so possibly ... this psychic woman... this medium... told me somehting... that saved my life... I went on antibiotics, they saved me, I did get sick, but still know they helped me... stabilized me.
So, do you know of any good book that would help me to open myself to these messages, to let me understand them... possibly I need to do something else.
thanks so much, :)
Gehna