I can't sleep.

In bed I was thinking, as I have done so in the past, about the cosmic consciousness model of reality and its theoretical or imaginary implifications. The most realistic way of looking at reality in my opinion - for existance cannot exist without conscious effort.

I've thought about these questions before, but now I'm actually writing them down and sharing.

Suppose that all conscious entities are really one consciousness experiencing itself subjectively in sort of a fragmented state of mind - and that we are all apart of this ultimate, ultimately singular conscious awareness. What then? Is there a point in which there is only one consciousness that ultimately exists? Wouldn't that be incredibly lonely? What would that be like? Is that the reason why there is an existance which contains an interaction of "neutral", "negative" and "positive" energy? To superceed or bypass a singular existance? How did existance even come into existance? What if existance did not exist? Does "God" have the ability to figure itself out and understand existance in a complete context? Will there ever be a point in which full understanding of existance will be achieved?

Reality is a trip.