Mary,

Sounds like more than anything, you need a hug, girl. So consider yourself hugged :-))

Don't be down on yourself. One of the most important things we as souls in this realm, must make the greatest commitment to in this life, is to love and honor ourselves. There are more than enough out there who will be critical and unloving to us...we need to continually strive to see ourselves in and on a higher level.

As far as your physical discomfort and emotional and health issues are concerned, "let go and let God". Sometimes we try to do too much in too short a period of time, and our bodies aren't quite there yet, and we create more negative energy around us.

Paramahansa Yogananda once said that when we are overwhelmed with problems it is good and healthy to just stop and step away--even if stepping away simply means taking a moment to marvel at the sunshine, or drink in a wonderful cleansing breath or to marvel at the beauty of a child--but to just leave the problem alone for a time in order to refresh the soul.

As so many have said on this forum and it is true, it takes years to get into bad shape, and it won't be corrected overnight...perhaps even over a few years sometimes.
The bottom line is not to give up, to stay vigilant, and BELIEVE that you will get better. When your faith is not there, your healing won't be either, Mary. I say this, even though I often wake up--daily--feeling like I can't go on. But you know what? God always gives me strength and courage, even if for just that one day--and the result is I'm still here, so obviously I could go on...you know?

Your advice, obviously given from the heart, is just as valuable as any given by that given/offered by anyone else on this forum. No one here purports to have all the answers--we're all here to offer support and perhaps direction to those who ask, based upon our individual and collective experiences.

No one is forced to accept anyone's information -- life is always about choice. So don't change your username in making a contribution, and don't feel you have nothing to offer--everyone on this planet was brought here for a purpose and we're all vital and important in the universe and have something to offer.

Try to take each day one at a time--don't look back OR forward. I know it sounds cheesy, but it is nonetheless true: live in the moment. If that moment is good, be thankful and joyful about it. If it is not, trust that the Creator--who brought you here to Curezone as well as to this side of the universe---knows this, and will never leave you alone to deal with it, even if it sometimes appears that way. You'll be OK.

Wanda

Hi Mary



I think that during the process of healing, we have good days and bad days. Also, I have learned that healing the body takes a long time. These protocols -for the most part- are going to be a way of life for me. Don't give up
Hang in there.


Have a good day
Ladybloom

Good morning Tracey
See you are starting your spring sleeping patterns.

hey mary are you drinkin enough water? have you tryed takin salt to hydrolize your body like you should. if not there is no dought that you fill feel sick and dehydrated. im gettin my salt wednasday, im all excited. could you share what kind of meds your on maybe i or some one else couls offer some advise on that. i once went to bed with gloves, a hat ans scarf to. come to find out i had poor circulation, water and excersize was that problem.

i dont know if you were just lookin for attention or what but i know you know how to take care of your self. and you will for another 41 years. the main thing to do that i figured out was to keep your body from getting dehydrated, and we know yours is from the hard as rock stooles that you mentioned. maybe you just wanted us to share these wonderful thoughts. but any way id be intersted in what kinda meds your on. take care

to all,

Thanks for all the hugs and good thoughts.

I am just down from lack of energy and fluids due to the colonics. They say they are supposed to hydarate you but they severely dehydrated me. I will have to heal from the colonic fiasco and continue what I was doing. My extreme coldness appeared after the colonic seris as well. After a rolfing session, the rolfer showed me all the dried skin flakes all over the purple sheets. He said he was breathing in the skin flakes that were flying in the air. I had just taken a shower too. This was from a rolfer that said previously that, I was the most hydrated person he knew.

And yes, I am a cold type person. I do not eat raw food at all and I do find that warm broth soups are the best for me.

I warm up my water to body or warmer temp before drinking.
Jill, I think your adivice on sipping warm water all day is good.
If I could find some sort of hot pot to keep the water at that temp, I might drink more of it. Jill, you are right on the money with your comments.

I was doing fine before the coloincs, I just hate it when
I make myself worse. Well, I just have learned 10 more ways to not get better. I can't do liver, colon, colonics, kidney, paracite, or dental cleanses. Nor can I take suppliments, herbs or eat cold or raw food. I can't take Antibiotics , over the counter meds or anti-depressants.

What I can do is, eat warming nurtitious food, and water, and move around enought to keep my circulation up to avoid from freezing.

I am like the gal in that healthfood store, cleanse and get worse. So, no more cleansing for me of any kind. And yes, I am allergic to most foods. I eat no grain, dairy or fruit. Just meat Sea Salt and selected veggies that don't make me sick.

I grew up with lots of infections and therefore, the solution at the time, Antibiotics . By college, I had lots of stomach problems from the Antibiotics and the southern habit of drinking iced cold sweet tea with every meal (but in New England). So, I am sure my glands are worn out from the over stimulation. One organ gets weak, and the rest follow. I started taking Zoloft about 10 years ago, but that only over stimulated the system more and I ended up in the hospital and they put me on more drugs. I felt so horrible, that I stated to refuse many of them. Here is the list I was on (serzone, zoloft, valium, welbutran, neurontin). After I got out, I was just taking the zoloft, neurontin and valium. Soon after I got out, I started to slowly taper off the valium as it made me a walking zombie. It took two years to be free of that poison. I gave myslf a well desearved break then started to taper from the neurontin. During the process I switched to the liquid version as coming off neurontin is proving harder to wean of that the valium. After the switch to the liquid, I started to feel more tired. I am hypoglycemic and it is probably due to the Sugar in it. I am also allergic to the milk and corn contained in it. I refused to take it due to these allergens, but I was told I was being uncooperative and they would not let me out of the hospitl until I took it, so I did. I thought I could just get off it once at home. But, it is not so easy. I have been coming down off it for almost 2 years. I am taking 90 drops a day now and it will take me from 5 monthes to 1 1/2 years to totally be free of it. Coming down too fast causes terrible withdrawals. Then I can taper off the zoloft, but that will take all the longer, cause I have been taking it 1/4 of my life and my body has been acustomed to taking it.

Julia Chang told me that detoxing will never be successful until you
are off all drugs. I tend to agree. The lady from www.rhea.com told me that her detox pills will only be detoxing the precription medications if I was taking 3 or more different presriptions a day and they would be a waste of time. I agree with that too.

So, I need to concentrate on coming of my prescription poisons.
Julia also said, one can never be totally healthy while taking prescription drugs. I am possitive this is the source of my failing body.

My own daughter almost died from taking antibiotics daily for 3 years straight. Messed up her whole body chemistry. She started getting better after I removed them, but I put her on zoloft since her moods were so out of control. She was on that for 8 years and told me she wanted to be off it. So we got her off. She has only been off the zoloft for 1/2 year, but most of her symptoms are gone and she has a horrible diet.

So, I should just use her as a model off how life can be drug free.

you know the difference between a drug pusher and a doctor.

Not a whole lot, except for some reason the drugs the doctors push are legal!

I am sure they cause way more misery than the illegal kind.

Mary

sorry for the wining