You trust this person 100% so what would it hurt to investigate her thoughts that you may be clinically depressed? Are you afraid of feeling good?

Go out on a limb and investigate...you seem to do well at expressing thoughts and ideas about your perspective on things. This could be a great way to begin your healing.

Mahatma Gandhi said, When doubts haunt me, when disappointments stare me in the face and I see not one ray of hope, I turn to the Bhagavad-gita and find a verse to comfort me.

The best known of the Vedic texts, the Bhagavad-gita (Song of God), is the philosophical basis for the Hare Krsna movement. Dating back 5,000 years, it is sacred to nearly a billion people today. This exalted work has been praised by scholars and leaders the world over.

Ralph Waldo Emerson wrote, It was the first of books; it was as if an empire spoke to us, nothing small or unworthy, but large, serene, consistent, the voice of an old intelligence which in another age and climate had pondered and thus disposed of the same questions which exercise us. It is not surprising to anyone familiar with the Gita that Henry David Thoreau said, In the morning I bathe my intellect in the stupendous and cosmogonal philosophy of the Bhagavad-gita.
http://www.foodforlifeargentina.com/What_is_The_Hare_Krishan_Movement_ISKCON.htm ~~
www.ChantandbeHappy.com www.Krsnabook.com with George Harrison
www.SrimadBhagavatam.org for great art gallery. lighten up life with some art.


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Wow! Your story sounds eerily familiar. I too went through very similar quandaries when I was young. I was also raised mormon and in my youth I realized I was being decieved. Trust me, the awful feelings of mormonism disappear with time. Also, it doesn't help that teenagers are dealing with insanity everyday. I hated being a teenager. I too had many cuts on my arms and took bottles of pills hoping that i would just "not wake up." Well, I did, but very sick from overdosing. I am still not mormon despite the hell it caused as a teenager within my immediate family and extended family. The mormon faith is deep in my lineage. My fifth great grandfather is Brigham Young himself, and my maiden name is Young. I was expected to follow in line... Well, now I am turning 30 in 3 days and I can tell you for certain that the shadow of mormonism no longer follows me. My family accepted me and my beliefs when I was in my 20s. I can actually say that it is a pleasure to be around mormons now. I think that most mormons know that deep down there is a lot of darkness and evil in their beleifs. A lot of wonderful feelings as well, but the trade off is your intellectual well being. Follow your heart... Believe that there is an end to this that doesn't require dying. As you get older all the mysteries about God will become clearer. The anguish of not knowing what is true will not last forever. As long as you are searching, you are headed in the right direction. I am not going to give you any opinions about my beliefs. Just know that many people evolve the the same conclusions I have, and we are better off for it. I have peace and contentment. I am a CEO now, and I used to be a high school drop out with very few friends, if any, at times. Hang in their. Be strong! Beleive you are worth waiting for. I was.

I know it can be very dark and cold with depression.
I am hear for you..I know what you are ging thru.
I have tried to commit suscide over 20 times and I am so happy I didn't.
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I have had similar feelings, though it was not tied to religion, it was tied to "letting my parents down" and not being the person they wanted me to be.

In the end, I survived. I got married and have a wonderful child. I still have periods of trouble, when nothing seems worth the effort, but I'm doing well overall. The astonishing thing is thinking how much I would have missed if I'd opted to exit when I was young. Many of those moments are precious to me now. When I look back, I will not regret my life to this point.

What would you like to see, experience or do during your life? For me, there was always something I could find to look forward to, however silly.

Drugs and alcohol aren't the answer. I drink, usually in moderation. If I over-indulge I feel the poisonous residue in my body.

You're at a scary age -- you will soon make your own decisions. Make them with love for yourself. You are on this earth to make a difference.

Perhaps you don't know what it is now, but if you make the courageous choice every time you have a choice to make, you will follow a path that significanly affects someone or something for the good.

A courageous choice is often a lonely choice. That is one of the weapons organized religions use to keep people from opting to separate. You need to make the right choice for you. If you choose to separate, your family may not support you initially, and the religion will support them if they make that choice.

You would end up on the "outside". So figure out where you want to be next, how you'd survive on the "outside" and focus on what you can look forward to there that is not possible where you are today.

One "next" at a time, focusing on honesty and courage. You can create a life you and your family will be proud of.

Be courageous!

ps. My neigbor, who is still sometimes depressed, is an ex-Mormon that named his pet "Marley". My neighbor is now a significant figure who made widely recognized contributions in the field of primary education. His contributions are helping generations of children have better lives.