Kevin--you are treating this (more and more) as your e-chat room...
Start making some decisions for yourself---OR, rest in silence for awhile
with your questions offered up--
Think of this: if you were to ask questions of the most awakened being you could imagine, what questions would they be? How would you condense/phrase them?
Realize that everyone who responds to these incessant probing vagueries,
is likewise, a little bit lonely for a chat...or, for being an authority for a brief time...
Weigh things according to the higher aspect of yourself = (what you may not even know you know!) the aspect a bit beyond all this asking/seeking/doubting/questioning/chitchat/laziness.
Honestly, and without BS, I'm telling you how it is...please note
'I' am not judging "you", but this behaviour.
edit ** something that might truly help.
The opposite of fear is love. If you feel/think "fear" over the body, breathe into it, and let it go on the outbreath. Replace it with "love". Where there's a flicker of love, light can enter. Trust to a power greater than any one person's instructions/ideas, and learn to connect Directly to Source.