Your post reminded me of myself some 25 years ago. I would like very much to share some of my experiences with you. We have a lot more in common than you know.

I will e-mail you.

Paueltte

Not all cops are sadistic *%#&¤?§* s, just most of them. It doesn't surprise me at all that he threatened to beat you. He'll get what he deserves in the end, I guarantee.

I want to share a quote with you that had a huge impact on my life.
While looking at yourself in a mirror say over and over again, as many times as you need to, until you believe it. Once you believe yourself you will want to repeat whenever you need a reminder.
" I forgive myself for thinking I ever did anything wrong "

When I first started this, all I could do was cry. I did not really believe it, but something wonderful happened, I started to somehow gain power from it, until I really did believe it. I can now look in the mirror and know that it is true. I also changed the way other people were treating me, but first I had to change the way I felt about myself. Try it. I will tell you it was real hard but well worth it, now I love the new, self confident me, I no longer live in VICTUM LAND.
Good Luck.