Soooo many bad memories.. Don't want to relive them.. I'm trying to stay happy by just living in the moment, trying hard to diet and get better, etc. But if you want to know, every day I have to go in public is an "embarrassing moment" for me. Every cough, stare, sniff, every time someone covers their nose when they walk by me, when someone says "It stinks in here".. Everything is just so embarrassing. Every depressing moment of it!!