hey guys,
things are complicated, im not sure how long i've got, and i'm little scared - i hope some kind soul will read this and give me some relaxing words or some advice - i've got a really bad cognitive decline, so ill try to write simple.

1 year ago i had several lower back pains after drinking with my friends - last time it got bad so i went to the hospital to get it checked. the doctor gave me an injection to help with the pain and sent me home. i've never had problems after getting pain in my lower back, but this time things got bad - i read a post here earlier about steroid injections and meningitis, and i was feeling that this is somewhat similar. after that i started having psychological problems, my mind started racing, and started frequent and uncontrollable daydreaming, anxiety, mood swings, and brain fog/migraines. i went to my doctor and told him about all this. he sent me for scanning and gave me antidepressants. after the scanning they've found out that i had an obstruction in a pipe, so the kidney couldn't remove all the waste, so i got surgery for that.

my psychological problems started to get worse, and they kept giving me different antidepressants. my mood swings turned into depression, and i developed cognitive impairment - additionally i lost control over my body, it feels like im on autopilot. the doctor didn't know what to do, so he sent me to a specialist. the specialists diagnosed me with schizophrenia, and gave my anti-psychotic pills. the anti-psychotic helped me with depression, but after i took their medicine, my emotions got blunted; so i cant feel happy, enjoy anything, or motivate myself to do anything. i've looked up schizophrenia on the internet, and found out that it's people with hallucinations/delusions/thought disorders etc. and i'm not having those problems, so i started to get skeptical about the diagnosis - especially after reading about suppressed health secrets and truth of pharmaceutical drug companies. i really don't know who to trust, when i can't trust my own thoughts sometimes.

i've been checking up on the internet to find alternative solutions; i found a guy who had the same problems as me, and he took an anti-inflammatory medication called "minocycline" and got better. he posted some stuff about brain inflammation, and how its linked to many mental disorders. i bought the medicine myself and within few days i started to get better, it felt like i was getting back to normal (all symptoms started to improve, brain fog/migraines got better, and i realized my frontal sinus swelling got better). but unfortunately i think i started to get allergic to the medicine, i was sneezing, my face was itching, my asthma got worse, and it felt like i had a burning sensation inside my head - and all the symptoms came back.

i've taken Colloidal Silver , vitamins and supplements, and improved my diet, but i don't feel different. the only relief im getting is when im taking anti-inflammatory medication, but the ones i got is not strong, and it has very short half life.

i told my doctor about it, but he says that maybe i started to show signs of delusions or something like that. im thinking maybe its inflammation in the brain, but man im scared to be wrong, cos otherwise i really don't know what the problem is. i was hoping someone could tell me what to do or where to go for help, and advice would be cool. sorry for the long post, i hope u guys hit me back.

thanks in advance, god bless

firas