Hello, My name is Jordon, I am a strong independent female, whos life is surrounded by nothing but goodness. I am currently in my first year of college. I graduated high school with honours and have worked thre jobs since I was 14 years old. At the prime age of 15 I started drinking. For most teenagers thats normal,but for me, drinking wasn't.... I never was one to drink everyday or even every weekend. But what I found was when I do drink I abuse the substance - like once I start drinking I cant stop myself I can drink anything from a '26-to a '40. Of course after consuming all of that alcohol I would black out- not mkaing sense of anything I said, I found that when I drank every moral and value in my life would dissappear, and I would be a completley different person. When I drink I go hard, and I really need help. After I drink I find I would wake up beside a stranger or in the hospital, Its coming to a point where I dont know what to do. AA is a good idea but I feel like Ill be the only 18 year old their-I mean I am not even of legal drinking age yet. I have a very addictive personality, and all I want in my life is to be the person I know I can be. I am smart, strong willed,independent and have always been one to say no to something I know is not right. I can't keep drinking like this. When I drink that much I will spend a month trying to get over it and just when I think I have over comed the bingeing, I decide to go out for one drink thinking that it will be harmless. When in reality it turns out, Ill wake up the next morning in a place I dont recognize, and I will have zero recolection of the night. I need help, and Im running out of ideas on how to help myself. If anyone is or was in the same position I would love to know the steps you took to over coming drinking.