Please, please, please! Rather than say "I just really don't want to relapse", say instead either "I'm going to open up to my parents and tell them just what pushed me to use drugs" or if you aren't ready to do that, then say "I will call the RAINN hotline and start talking".

So what if you start crying when talking to the person on the other end of the line? You won't be the first person who cried and you won't be the last. Those who answer the hotline phones are trained so they know how to talk to callers and where to refer them for help.

Please read the following CZ post:
//www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1495494#i


The OP sent me a PM just to tell me that she took my advice and called RAINN. They helped her find a local counselor. She told me she was beginning to heal her emotional wounds due to seeing the counselor. I was so happy to hear that! Although I never heard from her again, I do have a feeling that she continued to go and work on getting stronger.

Also, take another look at JTM14's post again. Read the part about how he and his mom are getting counseling:
//www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1727586#i


The reason I posted the links to these threads is to give you encouragement to get started on healing. Just saying you're trying your best and that's all you can do isn't enough. These two posters in the above mentioned threads did take that first step and are on their way to healing. You not only should---but must---take that first step!

Do take SoulfulSurvivor's wise words to heart.

Please get going. I hope the next time you post, it will be to tell us that you are on the right path.