I know myself more after the first fast, and am able to keep my anger under control. Feel free to comment!

Date:   7/25/2007 4:00:30 PM ( 17 y ago)

It's hard, it's hard.

I just read my previous blog "juice fasting for the first time", and it brought back some interesting memories. With hindsight I can now say I definitely did myself a big favor back then researching enough and taking it wasy for a pre week.

Now, some half a year after that experience, I've definitely been more regular, and gotten energised after eating sooner than before, and I think I did indeed lose a bit of weight / lumps / something. At least my face seems skinnier, weehaa indeed...

From experience I've now been able to recognise my anger pangs easier, and I've definitely been less patient with things today! I went out for a bit and popped into work, and although I didn't have to do any work stuff waiting for mum finishing hers really started to bum me out at a point, I was hungry and weak but I knew why I was moody and got it under control. Felt better immediately after some juice, broth, and water.

The Vogel broth is nice by the way, it smells divine but doesn't taste like much... However it's quite good to have for a bigger moment of hunger. The tea tastes interesting, but not bad.

I was tired most of today, and getting up and down the stairs is starting to be a pain. But I can't avoid it since upstairs is where my bed is. Also I get a bit of a blurry vision if I get up too quickly, but I just need to keep on being careful. Nothing interesting with the douching.

I've had heaps of cravings today, I've been thinking about foods a lot and I've needed to take a moment each time to concentrate on something else. I've been a bit pissed off about the fast, I'm definitely not a good faster, but at least I have the will power to stick through with it, I might be a whinger but I'm not a quitter!

My concentration seems quite short, and today I got clumsy in the morning and dropped my container of powder that of course cracked open and spilled a good bit of powder all over the bathroom mat. I didn't have the time and energy to vacuum it today.

It'll be interesting to see how moody I'll get during the rest of the week. Last time I remember having quite a tough time with my temper, but to be honest I think that week in January ridded me of negative thinking and anger pretty effectively, as after that I've been much less moody and actually relatively cheery in pressurising situations! My thoughts have been clearer, I've been able to adopt an even more optimistic, grateful and happy outlook, and I've actually been able to find more of a direction for myself in the form of having a greater sense of security on what I want to study and become when I "grow up" (never grow up, only bigger... :) ). I've also started working on my big bad love addiction, which meant leaving Australia, leaving my boyfriend (now ex) behind, and quitting my mingling ways (I'm actually not even interested in anything casual right now!) I've gained more confidence in myself, more ability to cope, and new philosophies. I like to think the fast played a part with this!

Me and mum juiced five kilos of carrots yesterday which made us about a pintful of juice both, and ahhh was it yummy... It was soft and cloudy and just deliciously sweet, no store-bought anything can ever compare! Today we also made half a bucketful of the best fruit juice ever, it had apples, honey melon, peaches, pineapple and sour plums, and it wasn't too sweet, it was just pure indulgence drinking it, we got about five Biotta pottles of it, and had a little bit straight off. I don't have enough words to describe how happy we were about it! We also bought a few more bottles of Biotta juices, I'm going to survive with them until Friday when I'll take the long-distance bus with my brother to another city to cat-sit at dad's place for the weekend. I'll take my leftover juices with me, and probably buy my own veggies to juice at dad's, I don't want to rely on the pastourised juices any longer. I might even stay away from home for a whole week so I'll be able to catch up with some mates, so I'll have to look after myself by myself on the post-week, and try to take it easy. No boozy reunions for me.

 

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