Yesterday seemed a whirlwind day of activity
and struggling to keep up with my lemonades and
my waters. I was really glad the lemons I bought
the day before were nice. The ones previously
took 5-6 lemons and the new ones, I can get a
cup of juice from 3 lemons.
This morning, company left and I was sorry to
see them leave but also glad. I realize that I
should have been more assertive and asked them
to come calling at a different time. The first
week of a fasting cleanse was too hard to do and
also have guests. I woke this morning to the
smell of fresh brewed Columbian coffee and it
was such a brain ache since physically I know
I will not cheat but emotionally, my inner child
had a tantrum. Just quit...quit NOW my little
tyrant screamed. Like a good parent, I fixed
myself a cup of tea and poured the rest of the
coffee down the drain. I did talk them into
taking the couple of dozen fresh tomatoes but
there is a fridge full of food left behind,
baked chicken, veggies, cheese, and eggs. :(
Most of all, the exhaustion of detoxing I have
been feeling for days, broke through the dike
and all I could do was go through the motions
of my daily chores and then succumb to the call
of my pillow. Nothing felt better than sleeping.
I could not find the energy for anything else.
I did body brush in a feeble attempt to bring
some energy to the surface but to no avail,
although it did feel good...ggg. I turned the
air conditioner up and snuggled beneath my
quilt and have been sleeping it all off. The
only interruptions was the phone ringing about
once an hour. This allowed me to get up and
do my loo duty and drink another bottle of
water. The call of the bed kept coming and as
I had so little energy to fight the feeling,
I kept diving in.
Finally, about 8 this evening, I felt like my
body was finally waking up. Nothing to brag
about, but I am hoping tomorrow will find me
returned to myself somewhat. Especially if I
can fall asleep before midnight, I have high
hope my chi will begin to percolate up through
this haze of what I know is detoxing.
I hope all those who are also fasting respect
their bodies when it comes to resting. I have
been naughty and pushing it the past few days.
My body today did not hesitate to rebel and
bring me to my knees with a healing dose of
exhaustion.
This too shall pass...
blessings & sweet dreams,
Zoe
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