No I am not religious

Date:   6/19/2007 12:01:36 PM ( 17 y ago)

I believe in God, but I am not going to call myself a Christian anymore. Today, I met a doctor introduced to consider being my guarantor of my TFL. I was not surprised that he turned me down since he had not known me before. His explanation started out alright but it continued till it bordered on irksome. He is a staunch Christian, and he felt that from his prayers to God, God communicated to him not to help me because this was not a missionary course. OK, I can handle that. When he asked me why I moved out of the house, I briefly explained that my parents and I had sever conflicting views about life and mentioned that they were also in disagreement with my foreign boyfriend, reasons for their use of violence. This was when he began to go off tangent. He told me he was uninterested in my story. Then he obversly told me that I am "meant" to leave my boyfriend and prophesized my next six months to be unhappy and turbulent. He advised me to withdraw from my situtaion because I needed some quiet. Well, that is why I want to commit to this fast so badly. I need time out.

From the point of view of a Christian, perhaps I will get threatened, afraid and confused by someone of the same "religion" that your life is going to be completely screwed up. Right now, I feel insulted and hurt that anyone could just ramble things with little regard and knowledge of another human being. Furthermore, unsolicited advice on what I ought to do in my life to live the so-called "Christian" way is not what I want to hear. Thank you for your opinion, but that is just what it is. You are entitled to it but I would like to live life by my rules and not a structure which a large community agree on. (An irony in itself when different communities disagree with each other to the extent they will kill for what they believe.)

Due to the unhappy and hurtful event that wasted 4 hours of my time, I am more determined than ever right now to tackle this fast, spend this quiet time to clean my internal self intensely, find a solution to my medical financial problem and live. I have an exciting wonderful life ahead of me. I am going to make the most of it and learn the most from it.

I am a free woman. I am Isabella.

Stay hopeful. We'll fix each problem--one by one.

 

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