Day 16 officially by labellavita .....

“Man is harder than iron, stronger than stone and more fragile than a rose.” Turkish Proverb

Date:   5/14/2007 4:49:44 PM ( 17 y ago)

Symptoms:
skin:
face ok
neck a little dry
shoulder ok
chest smooth
abdomen a little dry
upper arm smooth
elbow mildly dry *****focus*****
lower arm ok
right wrist skin healed
hand smooth
inner thigh a little dry
back thigh smooth
knee cap mildly dry, inflamation areas *****focus*****
back of knee dry, mildly inflammed *****FOCUS*****
lower leg skin renewing (hate this)*****focus*****
feet ventrum dry, healing (difficult)
ankled healed, dry

tongue: thin white film on whole tongue
odour:
BM:
others:felt the stinging sensation of nerves in my left hand, sneezed out mucus
overall:

sleep: 6 hrs

Exercise
1.went to clinics

Medication
0 GNC Ultimate Cleanse
0 Multivitamin
0 Evening Primrose Oil capsules
500 ml natural mineral water

Goals:
1. I want fantastic health, free of diseases and addictions.
2. Clear eczema
3. Fight bulimia

Nothing big happened today. I am turning in early as I am exhuasted.

By the way, my boyfriend and I have sort of made up after a big fight over the breakup. When he gets home from travelling we will get a chance to talk amicably. To be honest, he is a huge source of comfort and happiness to me and I know it is mutual. We have built bitter and sweet memories together over the last 2 years and withstood unpredictable highs and lows. I love him. How often does one get to feel the powerful raw brimming ecstatic genuine bond with another human being?

It is rare, but I found mine. We acknowledge that the dynamic nature of life may eventually lead us in different directions, but right now we have chosen to ride an adventure in this fragment of life together and that is enough. Lilly and Vanda (commentors) are correct. Recently, I had been so stressed out obsessing about my family ills that I began to deprecate and doubt myself. Perturbations of all sorts invaded my mind. When I move out, will my parents harass my friends, relatives, boyfriend? How about the family I am living with?Will they try to defame and threaten my boyfriend like they previously did? Knowing that they are remorseless about their abusive treatment of me and,quite to the horror of my counsellors,consider it "typical" discipline of every home, I can expect problems in the future--even with a legal protection order. The concerns I had about my boyfriend drove into me so much fear I thought breaking up would protect him; but I could not bear it frankly and I asked him back.

He was initially upset because I have periodically asked for a break up in order to protect him. In addition, everything we had in the past, present and plans for the future were significant to him. I am his "sparrow" (my nickname). However, like all couples, we made up after the fight and I have decided to stick by my decision: to live my life without chains nor fear, graduate into a doctor of impact, live a healthy life, continually grow in wisdom, keep God in my prayers. As for my relationship, I am in a place of bliss right now and that is where I choose to stay.

 

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