Dropping out of college for a semester to tackle this disease

Date:   8/2/2006 1:39:55 AM ( 18 y ago)

I just wrote the Financial Board of Directors at my college and told him I would not be able to complete my semester at school as of right now. It is putting a lot of stress on me and I have to fix myself right now. I am still coughing a little and there are sharp pains in my organs. I am going to the doctor on Thursday. I want to find out what the damage is because I know there must be some there since I feel the way I do.

As far as my second day, I am not thinking of alcohol because I know it is what is causing this horrible pain in my organs in my abdomen. I really just deserve this, I did it to myself and if I die, it's my fault for sticking the bottle up to my mouth. Hard or not hard to quit, deep down that is what it boils down too.

My girlfriend told me many times that I had pleanty of chances to get treatment. I don't know why this disease makes you blind to getting treatment. I guess it's that alcoholics love alcohol, why would we want to give up something we love. At the same time, we hate it. For me it has always been that way - the Dr Jekyl and Mr Hyde kind of way. Anyways guys, I made it 2 days now and don't be alarmed if I make it 2 weeks. I know I will do it that long, but I know this is going to be a battle I will always be fighting as long as I'm alieve. I can normally go 3 days without bad withdraws from alcohol and even longer, but it has never been by choice. My kidneys are hurting a little right now as I am typing this. Man this sucks! I'm 31 dude, and I can tell you that if you do drink, drink a better quality of beer. I have drank a lot of cheap beer and know it kills you faster. I don't care how stupid that sounds, it is true. I'll take 2 sober days though and my head is a little clearer tonight:)

 

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