Day 10 and a whole lot of willpower!!!

Date:   7/29/2006 8:06:02 PM ( 18 y ago)

Day 10 of my fast and like every night before this, last night I slept around 1am or 2am. I woke up at 12nn. Today, I couldn't stick to my usual schedule of juice every 2 hours. My brother and I went to the mall again and we came back home 1 hour late for my second juice. But it was quite fine. Though I felt a bit hungry while we were out.

After we got home, I immediately got ready for a friend's birthday party at one of my favorite grilled seafood restaurants. I was trying on my clothes and I felt really happy because I could wear my 'skinny jeans' again! After almost a year! And I wore this top that I hadn't worn for 3 years. It was good that I felt great about those because I was psyching myself up to prepare for the HUGE TEMPTATIONS that I was sure to face. It would be the first time that I go out for long time, and the first time that my willpower would be truly challenged because I love seafood! And I like to drink! And this resto is a bit on the expensive side so I only eat there once in a while, but since it's my friend's birthday, it's all free!!! So, anyway, I dressed up and psyched up. I armed myself with bottled 100% juice, and 2 green tea bags.

When we got to the resto and my friend ordered the food.. (speechless) I wanted so much to eat the baked mussels, sizzling tuna, etc., etc., and drink some beer while doing so! But, I mustered all my willpower and asked for a mug of hot water and made some apple green tea (thank goodness I brought tea bags! They didn't have any on the menu). My friends were first weirded out but they understood and didn't pressure me or anything, even though they don't have that much knowledge about alternative medicine or stuff like that (I do so love my friends). I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF! This lasted for the whole night! To think we were there from 8:30pm until 2:30am, and the celebrant kept on ordering and ordering food, some were even placed in front of me! She also kept ordering these beer towers, 3 liters of beer in this about 3ft tower-like keg. I amused myself by being the one to refill their glasses! I actually had fun. I also kept telling them to eat this, and eat that. I'd tell them to eat it for me! Haha! :) All in all, it was a great night. I know that this was a huge challenge for me as to how much willpower with relation to food that I have, and now I know that I have so much. I just never really used it before. I AM SO PROUD. :) Resisting not eating the food I love was really hard at first, but eventually, it became easier. This one's a good tip from one of my psych classes in college: If you're trying to resist temptation, by resisting the first step that leads to that temptation (let's say in my case, when a plate and utensils was put in front of me, though I had no plans of putting food in it, I put it away from me), then it'll be easier to resist the rest. :) I have to keep that one in mind even after the fast. But I do think that I'll go to that resto when I can eat solid food again. Hehe. :)

All night I've been drinking just green tea, I think I had too much. I'm not sure about it's caffeine level but it's already 9am and I'm still awake. Hehe. Oh, well. I'll try to stay awake the whole day in order to be able to sleep at 8pm and finally change my sleeping pattern.

Have a great day everyone! :)

 

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