feelings I can't describe

Date:   6/20/2006 3:04:12 AM ( 19 y ago)

I have to ask something. I am on day 23 and I wonder why I am having so many feelings toward my past? I feel like I am 21 again (10 years ago). I feel like I should do something great. I got lost in alcohol for 10 years and now I am free almost. This is the best thing that ever could have happened to me. It is very weird in such a good way. Fasting does something that cannot be described by any person that has never fasted. For those that have fasted... this is like the best buzz in the world. My head is so clear and I can almost remember anything that I have ever done. How far can this go? I think I should fast for 40 days now. I think I should fast for more than that? Everything.... and I mean everything is getting better! I sleep 4 hours and feel like I slept 10 sometimes. My dreams are so real that I plan on acting on some.... I am starting to feel like I can accomplish anything!

I have 21 hours before day 23 is completed actually, but don't have any doubt that I will not get past it. It is not so bad. Juice is still filling me up and although I crave the steak with heinz 57 sauce, I will get over it! A salad is going to taste so good when I eat it. I think that will be my 2nd thing I eat after a day of soft fruits. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!

 

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