Memorial Day cleaning thoughts

Date:   5/29/2006 6:46:43 PM ( 18 y ago)

I used to watch Oprah when people would talk about emotional eating. I've come to see through the pop psycho BS and stopped watching folks like Dr.Phil give advice about diet. There's only one person worse than he for diet advice and that's Andrew Weil, the faux health expert. Anyway, I'm sitting here in my premarital stress meltdown thinking about the role that food has taken on in my life. Why don't I use exercise and healthy food to help me? That would be better.

I am quitting coffee tomorrow, an idea that scares me. Yet, I know I need to do it. I sound like a real drug addict. I feel like one. I hope that doesn't offend any recovering drug addicts out there who've dealt with things like meth, coke,etc. Yet, I've had the equivalent of almost a pot of coffee a day these days. I looked down the bottom of a toilet bowl today as I thought about vomiting and decided not to. I remembered the promise I made to my fiance and I turned away. Instead I went to old reliable Starbucks and came back and began cleaning my room and packing boxes. I'm getting married next week and now is no time to batter my body mentally and physically.

I bought a bag of limes and am going on a three day fast of lime juice with cayenne pepper and aloes. No maple syrup. This is not to lose weight for my dress either. I just feel like doing it. I was reading in David Wolfe's book, the chapter on fasting for time management. Well I need time management! And emotional management and spiritual management...Would it be insulting to God if I prayed to stay on a diet??? LOL

Anyway, no delay tactics. I'm off to continue packing and cleaning. I'm ending the day with the idea that I'm worthy of happiness and love. I'm not an ugly person. In fact, I'm pretty and I'd look better if I think better thoughts about myself. Not going to think about looking perfect on my wedding day but just making it to the altar :-) Plus, when I'm done, I'm doing a Rodney Yee Power Yoga CD. Bikram Yoga is my favorite but at this point in the day I don't feel like putting on my sauna suit.

 

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