Unlike my day to day submerssion in regular day to day life, my NDE is an event that plays over and over inside of me, like "Groundhog Day," the movie. I keep learning more each day within the context of my NDE, but I continue going on with my life. When I can say what happened with enough clarity though, perhaps I will finally be capable of publishing what I see constantly before me.

Date:   9/18/2006 12:53:43 PM ( 18 y ago)

Have you ever lived by the ocean? At first you admire it. Then one day, you move on to other things and you don't see the ocean anymore. It is right in front of you but it does not have the same importance it once did. The ocean blends into your life. I imagine for most people that their NDE is much the same. While my NDE is always there, it is so vast and so complex that I could just look at it constantly to see what it has to say to me...but I don't. I choose instead to let my NDE have an important place in my life but not let it consume my life. Many people don't want to remember their NDE's for probably the same reason. I understand that. I don't read other people's NDE's unless they share their personal NDE with me in this forum or otherwise personally one on one. I don't look at other people's NDE's to avoid having them confuse my own experience. I want what I say to be as accurte as possible as it it applies to what I experienced in my my Near Death Experience and not trough the perceptions of another's NDE.

I don't know if anyone else has witnessed the end of the world in their NDE? I think somehow that it is not the most important aspect of my NDE but it is still important. Coming back to my body from heaven in my own Near Death Experience, as I was just beyond the atmosphere of the Earth, I opened a book of sorts from what I call the Library of Heaven. There are so many books to choose from there. The books we open are a kind of tool box we get to use to help us decide what it is that will best help us learn the lessons we want to learn in our lives. For me, one book I opened was a book about the history of the Earth. It was as a fast forwarded 3D video that would allow me to pick and choose elements from the vast expanse of everything that has ever occured or will ever occur, up until the end of time, in the space Earth now occupies. It was like a fixed three dimensional camera that was set up that could zoom in and out with my own will. Maybe no one ever saw the fast forwarded version before? Maybe there are those who have seen this but choose to forget? But, for me, I see it very clearly.

As an observer, the "Librarian" stood behind me as I opened the book showing the history of the world, from moment time began at the very beginning of the moment the Earth was formed to the world's final destruction in a massive explosion from within. And then, I saw nothingness in the place where the Earth once existed until the end of time. Essentially, I saw the entire history of what will occur from one vantage point, until the time began up until the moment when time ends. There is no time in heaven but in this part of my NDE, I did indeed see time pass from beginning to end, right in front of me.

I woke up thinking, what was it that was important about knowing this? Why do I choose to remember this part of my NDE with so much emphasis? Is it important to know that the world ends in a ball of fiery flames? What is the importance of it? No one told me the answers to that question in my NDE. Some have even suggested it was a metaphorical perception of a birth and re-birth of the world. Perhaps others think I must be mistaken. This morning, I woke up, and it occured to me that the importance of my memory of this part of my NDE is not the end of the world or the end of time. All things participating in the illusion of time are born, will live, then die. What we do, each soul, in the inbetweens is what is important. We can not change that we fell into the illusion of time. We with our own free-will fell. We can not change that we were born into a dying world. It will die. What is important, is what remains, beyond when the world disentigrates in flames. What we decide to do with what we do with whatever small measure of time we are given may not change the end but love we give and the love we receive will survive the flames. The whole world needs to know this. When time is rolled up, all that remains of us are those moments when we loved and times we allowed ourselved to be loved. This is what I woke up needing to say.


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