How Can I Not Eat When I'm STARVING?
As I type this, close to midnight, I am FAMISHED. I haven't eaten enough today due to all of the studying I have to do. And because it's so late, I can't make myself a shake or I'll wake everyone up. I guess I'll find something boring, like carrots! Times like these are rough. I've never had an equivalent experience on SAD, where I was hungry but felt picky about what to eat. "Back then" my only criteria for not eating something at midnight was if it caused heartburn. Now that I eat raw, I find myself going for hours without eating because I have no cravings for anything. I look up and I've missed lunch or skipped dinner without realizing it. And then late at night when I am starving I still find myself debating what to eat, like a crazy woman! I'm going to go forage in the refrigerator. Maybe I'll have some dates. I'll list them below order to make it a done deal. (Good thing, because my head is killing me!)
Despite my skipping meals, I think my friend in Ohio who is a nurse would say I'm doing all right in the calorie range. I always keep her concerns in mind when I look at my calories after I've eaten all my meals. "What would Pam say?" I ask.
MEDICAL STUFF
Two new aches/pains since January 1st, 2006
Since the increase in my study load, I've found myself sitting for hours at a time. This has wreaked habit with my hip, to the point where sometimes I can't walk for a few minutes due to extreme pain. Back before I lost 200 lbs the first time around, I had a similar problem, but not with pain- just discomfort. It feels like my hip is dislocating, but that its exacerbated by my lack of physical activity as well as by my weight. As I lost that original 200 lbs, the problem went away completely, so I hate to go to the doctor just to hear, "you're morbidly obese and need to lose weight!" I already know that!
I also have a pain in my foot, along the top. It doesn't impede my walking at all so I tend to ignore it, but it's been there on and off for about three weeks. I attribute most aches and pains to my weight but I might go get that checked out since I don't understand it.
Bloodwork
OH- I almost forgot to add that I found out that if I get bloodwork done, I'll have to pay for it. If I can afford it, I'm going to go ahead and do it because I think it's important for my raw food lifestyle. I also found out the my insurance provides free consultations with a nutritionist, so I plan to pay her a visit. I don't know if she's an advocate of raw foods, but we shall see!
TODAY'S MEALS
BREAKFAST (Smoothie)
Banana, mango, blueberry smoothie - YUM!
LUNCH (More like a snack!)
1 banana
Whole Foods Raw Nuts/Seeds Mix (estimated cals), 0.25 cup
DINNER
Taboule 1 cup
Raw Blue Cheese, 1 oz
Green Giant Spring Mix Salad, 2 cup
SNACK
4 Medjool dates (they're pretty big)
Calories 1,381 Carbs 203 Fat 36 Protein 27