Not a good idea to be home with nothing to do but think of all the yummy things I can't have...

Date:   9/30/2005 6:08:49 PM ( 19 y ago)

Ok, "hellish" maybe too strong a word. And it really started last night. Last evening, my friend and I had a great time at water karate. We splashed and kicked and "hi-yaa!"ed it up! Lots of fun, but the rest of my evening wasn't as good. I had an unsettling personal issue and it ended up keeping me up til 3 or 4am, so I decided to not go to work today. Not sure if this was truly the best idea. It is so much harder to be here at home, especially with nothing to do but think and sleep. I found myself to be twice as hungry and for the first time felt truly crummy. Being upset doesn't help matters. Food beckons me at every turn, but I am half way through to my commitment and I know I will never forgive myself if I fall.

Tomorrow is the wedding and although I am going to look fabulous in the new dress I bought for the occasion, I am worried about the sit-down dinner. Not sure how to handle it. I don't want to sit there with the food in-front of me and not eat it, that would feel terribly rude. Wish me luck.

 

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