misc.notes on everything

Date:   12/7/2005 5:35:47 AM ( 19 y ago)

Well my post yesterday on this blog has stirred up an emotional/mental hornet's nest. Yes this happens when you set your foot out on the healing path of purification. You have to see and smell the stench of the wound and pus when you lance it. I feel that I'm coming face to face with all my hangups, jealousies and fears about body image and size, also appearance. This is just the beginning of course. I was reading about abstinence in Overeater's Anonymous but there's a part of me that can't go there yet, same with fasting. It's just like drugs. Food is a drug for a lot of people. I don't want to lessen the experience of crack, heroine addicts but my attachment to cooked food is almost like an drug addiction. Sometimes I watch the show Intervention and I say hey that's me with most all cooked foods.

I have a certain level of sadness about me over a lot of things I can't control. So why am I sad? I'm not overeating but it's clear I use certain foods like coffee, cooked food starches,etc. to placate my feelings. I've doing some heavy duty journaling lately so maybe that's what it is, that's what stirring up all these feelings.

I have a copy of Queen Afua's Seven Day Nutritional Fasting plan. I started making a list of 'what if's and what could happen' if I just followed and stuck out that plan for one week. I've committed myself to waking up at five every day this week. Today I woke up at 4:59. Tomorrow is my day off so instead of reaching for a cup of tea, half a cheese quesadilla and some cereal (like this morning), I'll drink a big glass of cleansing lemon water.

At first this blog started out as a blog bookreport on Queen Afua's books BUT it's gone way more than that. My vision of this blog is to document my own purification for other people's benefit a part from my other blog. I will try to keep the focus of this blog strictly to physical body healing and purification.

Have a good day everyone.

 

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