Moving

Date:   5/10/2005 2:06:26 AM ( 19 y ago)

and I need all my homies to send massive amounts of energy and support my way- I am having difficulty staying present and when I am not present I am complaining about past or in the fear of the future...Or in disagreement with reality. I am on my way whether I like it or not.

I did KY this afternoon and I feel 50% better-but when I get home I am living with large boxes-no silverware -ohoh stop now- And a lack of cooking utensils-

Betwixt and Between- It is unsettling for me...so I guess right now, settled is not where I belong- Frankly, I have been to some degree unsettled for 18 months- It is interesting because I can feel unattached, not settled but happy- living with boxes and nospace- and no access to stuff....It is temporarily uncomfortable.

So here what's so: what if I can stay grounded and present inthe face of arranging timetables coordinating help, and interviewing for a Director of Development with Rudolf Steiner's Waldorf School -what if; I am doing it anyway..so let me find all the reasons to appreciate my life right now the way it is -yuck-

OK, OK, I have great, awesome people in my life, I am making progress in working for a cause I believe in. I am cutting down -if you could see all these boxes!!! 9 of them are books and 3 of those nine are movies...dear me, I love to read! Like living at "Stonehenge of the Cardboard".

All my books are boxed, it doesn't make me feel fuzzy.

And I have homework at SOM-need to read..maybe during yoga!!

What's so is I crave and need yoga, my back is bothering me and yoga helps. I wonder if I was present and at peace with this mess, if my back would improve! Maybe!

Goodnight,

Send me moving energy thoughts please!

Thank you!
9th

 

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