(Ummm, don't tick me off today...am short tempered)

Date:   3/17/2005 4:05:24 PM ( 19 y ago)

I am TRYING to maintain a positive attitude in spite of wanting to do nothing other than take a big NAP. Uggh, coffee does not seem appealing (if someone had told me a week ago that I wouldn't find coffee appealing, I would have laughed in their face). Nap sounds good.

My job requires me to be 'schmoozy' and UPBEAT, something I am loathe to do unless I can do it with complete impunity and be sincere in my schmooziness. Uggh. Just want to nap. Or yell, but I haven't the energy to do so. My boss is out with his kid but when he comes back, I am going to go home. At least he is cool with things like that. Even his jokiness (which usually makes me laugh, we get along great) bothers me to no end.

I just keep remembering what a friend of mine used to say about another friend of mine "She gets on my one nerve that's left." Well,that sums up my crappy outlook today.

I just wish it were Sunday. Arrrrgh, everything in moderation, even pre-MC cleansing. I did bentonite for five days (every night starting last Thursday and lasting through Monday) at night and probiotics in the morning, but still feel absolutely WEIRD. Like I am about to explode (better to explode than implode, I think). Am willing to bet that my mostly raw diet, alternated with simple legumes and brown rice and lightly steamed veggies, has NOT helped my tummy one bit. Am such an extremist. Couple this with weaning off of coffee and it is no wonder I am a mess today.

My mood is actually improved after writing this. Although, a nap still sounds Utopian...

 

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