I was told every day I was loved, but I had been through such lack of protection, and manipulative coerciveness that I hated, I hated what I 'knew' to be true ...what I did not understand is that little Trudy held the space of love of me...regardless of any and all...How strange... I am such the warrior...I can hold the space but no one could or would have touched my daughter the way I was...but you know SHE never understood until quite recently how much I have loved her

Date:   8/19/2005 4:31:28 AM ( 19 y ago)

GoodNight, Bless you
and as my Irish mother would say-'Do Not Let the Bed Bugs Bite!'

And I loved that woman not enough.

She adored me, she taught/gave me unconditional love
She quite definitely would have died for me at any point in my existence

How can I ever live up to the huge burden of that Love ? Easy Give it to all those you touch...Ask for nothing and give.. ! I just 'know' as I read Curezone forums and blogs.....
Gertrude Bridget, Irish birth, 34A chest, 5'4", green eyes, black hair, gave me such a base for love. I was told thru hellacious experiences how much she loved me...I was not protected , I was not given information I needed to chart a level course..but, crazy enough, I know, without doubt, I was loved...
that I am able to move beyond the ordinary levels of being is directly related to the love of Gertrude Bridget...Oh dear If all of you could onlyhave known the love of Trudy...The world would be a better place

We can survive such horrible betrayals, such breaches of faith, such manipulative sexua| intrusions as a child, and with the love of Trudy you know whatever occurred the bottom line is Love...Even with pain there was Love....Good Night- Ihave hot work in the morning



 

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