First two day review of Foundation Clearing and Building Work.H

Date:   7/29/2007 10:35:16 AM ( 17 y ago)

8:02 AM
July 29, 07

I have participated in the Whole Being Weekend
for many years, more than 25. For years it was
held twice a year, once in the Spring and once in the Fall.

I have worked through lots of new projects
up there.

It is a very supportive environment.

It was started by Jim Nessheim.
Those were wonderful times for expressing
leadership. I was the Saturday night main speaker
for many years.


Then Rob took over when Jim did not want the weekend
anymore. Jim shows up most of the time for an evening.
The weekend is now in Idylwild and Jim has a home up there
as well as in San Diego.

This year, a new group of leaders is orchestrating the weekend.

Early this morning, I had a disturbing dream about the Whole Being Weekend.

I went.
The weekend was on a beach.
I was parked in the EG Mobile somewhere to the right of the weekend.
David Carmos, who led the Memorial to Dr. White,
was there parked near me.

At one point he was preparing to do a ritual
less than 1/4 mile.

At one point I turned around and saw that he had put up
a lovely Altar of some kind with streamers.

I was amazed how quickly he did this.
I assumed that was the Altar where he was going to do his ritual.

At another point, I was listening to the sounds of the
Whole Being Weekend from a distance.

Suddenly It dawned on me it was Saturday afternoon or later
and I had without knowing it missed the event. I was too far away.

I was there but not there.

I was not really involved.

I realized I missed the ritual that David did.

I walked up there, or near it, and realized
the Altar was taken down.

Then I started to walk back to the EG Mobile.
I could not find it.

I felt a shocking feeling. I could not find the
correct parking lot where I had left her.

____

To Do:

Today is a Very Important Day of Transition.
I want to En joy this Day.

I have been taking a Trip down Memory Lane into
the 90's and yesterday, late afternoon, into the 80's.
On Friday, I wanted to clear the top of the Blue Shelves
where I had been storing lots of Old Tape Boxes.

I do a lot of recording, and use to travel with
a small recorder in my fanny pack for many years.

Most of these tapes I never listen to again.
It is some kind of security thing I do,
and also a sense that what is being said
I Value and want to save. Maybe it is because
I cannot believe I want to learn more from the experience.

Friday, it was difficult to toss get through the tape
boxes. I did make progress. I was able to compile lots
of tapes into fewer boxes.

I started to separate various tapes into yellow containers,
bucket size.

Yesterday, Anna moved a bunch of clutter that
was blocking access to the other side of the Blue Shelves.
All this area was full of old notebooks of mine,
as well as more and more cases.

I could not seem to make progress yesterday.

Too many of the notebooks still help Value,
especially stuff from the Jewish Renewal Movement.

I experimented with tearing up photos.

I am sorry I tore up one this morning.

I was able to get through a number of the tape
boxes.

I tossed out two yellow buckets full.

I made another white plastic bag full that can
be magneticlaly erased.

Toward dusk, there were a number of notebook
I could toss out.

There is a box of very dusty VCR tapes.
I feel I can do what Judith was saying with those.
Just toss them out.

The greatest finds were

1- an audio tape by Jeanne Childs called
"Fragmentation." I am really surprised that more
people did not click on that Blog here.


Jeanne calls Fragmentation
a major disease of our time.
I agree with her.

I am deeply victimzed and out of control
with this state of mind.
Fragmentation has many symtoms
that many of us reading this blog will identify with.

Much of our lack of sucess is due to doing too many things.

Fragmentation is caused by many things.

Among them is No one Home Inside.
We externalize, imagining that Others are going to
meet our needs.

This comes from not fully individuating from our Parents.

They never grew up fully or lived their lives fully.
They did not know how to parent and then release us to
our own lives.

We are set up to feel something is missing,
so we go out side to get, get, get more.
We imagine we can fill up our lives by getting things.

We are broken inside.

Jeanne uses computer terms, such as
We need to "De-Frag."

She also speaks about the Disk being Full.

No more Space for more Data.

I have gained much from this experience listening to the
tape. I have gained much from spending two days in this
extremely dusty and dust mite infested area of the basement.

I am coming up with a Game Plan that will help
me get to a new level of success.

If I want to Succeed and be more fulfilled,
I am going to have to simplify my projects.

There are just to many to be sane.

Step one for me is Seeing the situation,
and tossing out what I can.

The Universe is helping me with friends
who are supporting me.

I had an important session with Judith the other night.
Yesterday I called William Spear. He was generous with his
time.

This morning I got a great email from Lurrae,
one of my close Feng Shui Allies.

This is going to take time to heal this
Condition of Humpty Dumpty
that has falled down into many pieces.

The Soul is the Solution.
The Soul is Whole.

I have a ways to go...but Today
I am O.K. clearing the Space
where I was working outside for now,
and tossing out some things in my space.

Here are some important blogs
to read if you want to join me
in taking on your own pattern of doing too much:

Murdering Life:

http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=2525


Clutter and Debt:

http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=2528


Overeating too many things;

http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=2527

Fragmentation:

http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=2526



 

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