process...

Date:   6/24/2007 9:07:54 PM ( 17 y ago)

6:58 PM
June 24, 07

Took a garden tour on the way to get an empty
white bucket for compost, an eyeful.

One of the planets I was coveting and enjoying,
the way it was trellising up some boards
as a future entryway to the backyard, was removed
and replaced with a basel that will be dead within three months.

I do not know if all the coordination in the world
can remedy what needs to happen here.

I look around my room.

I have made a choice, however unconscious,
that will likely not allow many of my writings--books
to go out--if I keep proceeding in the direction I am.

Energy is going into seeing if
seeing that this 1/3 reaches some kind of peace.

Is this the state of the garden everywhere?

It would take tons of human energy to bring this to peace.

Even if every person here were working in the garden
and the house....I am not sure it could reach peace.

[O.K....the peace has to come from somewhere else...
I know it is a perception.... but the clutter
and overgrown is beyond what appears to be working....out here.]

Much improvements...
that is essential to slow down and record
the Improvements we make because there is just too much
here to be Done.

IT has got to be the process as well as the end.

I am clearly looking at the end.
I would like to get back to doing something else by Fall.

We have a House Meeting tomorrow night.
I am in Mercury Retrograde.

Cannot say how much I can do as far as
sharpened pencil head...

I napped alot today...
had to... headache...

need to explain to N about what is deep cleaning

need to show the what is weekly and what is deep.


 

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