#2442 11:01 April 2, 07 How Very perfect it was... The First Annual Enchanted Garden Seder on the night of Chesed in Chesed on the Journey of Awakening.

Date:   4/4/2007 12:11:13 AM ( 17 y ago)

11:01
April 2, 07

Chesed she b'Chesed
First night of the Journey Toward Awakening.

Last year this time I was enjoying the full moon
in the desert, full, full, full,
i walked barefoot in the sand between my toes
praising my victory that I was without Twin Soul/Best Friend.

Then, five weeks later at the time when we marry God at Sinai
it was her birthday. I came over to celebrate.
I was astounded to find her doing healing work on me
after I gave her birthday gifts, then she welcomes
me to heal her.

I was surprised that after her nine month's of saying
No to physicality she asked if I would like to enter her.
She gave permission. I did.

The Passover the year before, Chesed in Chesed, we had gone
six months or more without physicalness,
but then on that night, she welcomed me to enter her.
It was profound, an amazement.

It is always the same--Divine,
pleasure always at the point where it can
turn into something Sacred.

This goes beyond the definition of what is named
the three letter word that starts with S and ends with X.

Now, we are both letting it go with each other
out of her asking.

The sad part for me is that she does not consciously
remember about the incredible Timings of Chesed in Chesed
or that is was Christmas Eve, or the Timing when God Married
man through the joining of Man and Woman.

She does not remember these things, and that does make me sad,
but beyond this I honor that her decision now
goes deeper than physiciality, though she said it in a way
that would hurt a normal.

"I am withdrawing so that I can be open to be with someone else,
and I cannot be with some one else if we keep connecting like this."

How mundane.

It was all perfect, the beginning, the middle, and now the end
of this physicalness that brought Heaven and earth together.

Tonight, I am with four women. The last is getting her feet
massaged and washed by another woman.

I am in my finest hour coming home to the Enchanted Garden
here where I live. It was wonderous, running around the house
before hand, opening doors, connecting energies, feeling so very
at home, setting the Altar spaces, and the unusual and unorthodox
Seder table.

The pineapple is so very sweet,
and the Future Opens in the present in the
Enchanted Garden. I will enter by Her Invitation,
and yet, I am saddened, but will soon release this,
that the She, so very perfect, may not have realized
how very perfect it was.

Back to do the Final Dance with each woman
now with her seeds in hand.

We dance the Finale.

Happy Passover to all,
and to you Twin Soul/Best Friend.

11:10 PM

 

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