We go out seeking someone who will reject us in love until we get to the bottom of this, seeing into what we are doing, and ultimately embrace that disowned part inside that feels rejected.

Date:   12/28/2006 11:29:24 AM ( 18 y ago)

9 AM
December 28, 06

Up and around doing some cleanup,
working with wet laundry, etc.

Revelation on Love Rejection:

We have stuffed rejected feelings
from unmet childhood needsin the Crack.
We want to get to the bottom of this.
We want to release these feelings.
We set out ot feel them through
finding someone who will reject us,
sometimes over and over again
until we introduce higher consciousness
"gardening Tools" that evolve seeing
through the pattern, and ultimately
Loving Ourselves.

It helps when we choose a partner
who is willing to go through the "barfing"
up phase when we need to be reassured
that they will not reject us.

Often, if we have a partner who will not reject
us, we will seek another partner who will reject us
until we become conscious that we are
seeking rejection to feel this, to get
through this.

Here is a poem from "God is Also Rated X'
one of the poetry books I will be re-releasing
again this year.

© 2006, Leslie Goldman, Your Enchanted Gardener

Praise Glory

Praise glory to those
who feel their depths,
who do not mask their tears, anger,
sorrow, loss, regret
from themselves,
who through their gallant courage
face the terror and unknown
where knees tremble,
who do not move on,
move on surefootedly,
with ungrounded optimism
toward the same, the same,
drawn-out dramsas
with different players.

So deceiving is new touch,
so tempting the new love thrill.
Newness is mostly busywork,
.Bodies midnight touching
are rarely new bodies touching.
New bodies are old bodies undressed
differently.

We return always to the old
that brings back the unspoken,
unsaid, haunting us in dreams.
We always return until we have fallen,
fallen deep
into ourselves.

From "God is Also Rated X"
written May 11, 1982

 

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