Making progress and self healing this morning with Records. Aurvedic herbs I am finding helpful.

Date:   7/27/2006 12:56:28 PM ( 18 y ago)

10:32 AM
July 28, 06

Mercury Retrograde
goes out tomorrow.
Usually goes out with
a blast.

I am glad I am sitting here
refining my Record Keeping
Systems and that I am taking
the time to do this.

This is the last time I am going
to allow broken Financial Systems
to cause me to have to majorly
pull back from life to work day after day.

There were some months last year
when the Quicken, the program that I use
for records, was not downloading from the bank.
I depend on that. I needed an upgrade.

I am having some big Aha's this morning.

I am really using my Financial Garden Management
Journal Notebook and my Financial Monthly Report
Notebook to help me organize.

I do not know where I have been.
It is as if my left brain has been dysfunctional for the longest
time.

I am heading for the place where I am going to use
Record Keeping as a Spiritual Practice to help me
bring my Seed Dreams into the world.

I am writting out procedures for each of the Catagories
I use. I am having reports tied in with each Catagory
Detail reports tied in with each Catagory.

I am writing out the steps to do each,
so I can get to the place where I do can just do this
Financial Record Upkeep month to month
without going into stress.

I am going to get things organized to the place
where I can turn this over to someone else.

If I run into a difficult math computation that I cannot
grock today, I am going to put these in the "Parking Lot"
and take them up with advisors later.

I am turning the corner on beating myself up
when I hit one of this math computes that just
does not make sense.

I am struggling to let what I am doing now
be what I am doing now, without grieving
the loss of my life as I would like it.

As i get this aspect of my life in place,
I will be able to more respectfully integrate
a financial foundation with the natural talents
that come more easily to me.

My Best Friend is in a hour of travail--
and she is including me in the daily reports.
This is giving me some sense of a place
to put my life energies and be involved in
another person at this time when I cannot
be overesxtending and distracting.

GOAL; Get the '05 done, without skipping
organic steps, and get this to my accountant
friend Lee. I feel I may be able to finish this
by the end of the 28th, tomorrow. That would
really be a great accomplishment.

I am seeing this as a year end activity.
The New Year in the Enchanted Garden begins
with the Fall Equinox that also coordinates this year
with the Jewish High Holidays.

I am feeling some sadness that I am not
in gear for planning for Fall activities such
as the Whole Being Weekend, or Pacific Symposium.

This is where I need to be.

This is an important place for me to be
so I can get on with my Life in a more expanded
way through allowing this necessary detail work
to happen.

I feel like King Arthur in that film
Excalibur when he drinks from the Holy Grail
and suddenly he can see again.

I do not know where I have been for numbers of years.

Perhaps the anxiety levels and Crack material
has been so high, that I have not been able to be on
top of things in this world. I am been in anxiety
a lot since last summers Feng Shui Conference...
and during the Pacific Symposium last year--
November.

Then, I spend many months putting out of the anxiety
by escaping and expanding into successful projects,
but while I was doiing this, I was avoiding what I am doing now.

So now I am doing what I was avoiding for a long time.
Hooray!!!!!

___

I am feeling some value from two
Avurvedic supplements that Nuva Yeetah gave me.
He said, they help a person get into their Soul
rather than tending constantly to the "barking dogs"
of our Crack material.

I can access my soul during the night.

These supplements are helping me.

They are called
Sootashekhar

and Chandrakala

They seem to help the Mind
take signals from the Soul.

In the Essene work, the Mind--
the harmonous Mind--
is intended to be a byproduct of the
Soul on the Earth Plane.

Most of us allow the Mind
to take its signals from
the Crack material...

I am going to look up these
Ayurdedic supplements now
on the Internet.

I am also having increased
sciatic pains in my feet the
last few days since I stopped
the other regimen of Ayurvedic supplements.

I have an Accupuncture appointment
with Jessica tonight. That will be good.



 

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