Wasting time. I am feeling frustrated by money #'s and sales tax owed adding up to little. Missing Life.

Date:   7/5/2006 5:41:45 PM ( 18 y ago)

3:34 PM
July 5, 2005

Jumping out of my skin.
Going through Paypal's collected history
for the last year to complete Sales Taxes.
Listening to Tibetan Chants to keep focused--
Jonathan Goldman.

Extreme stress.
I was not made for this
to be wasting so much time
with tiny money numbers and calculations
when my mental health and emotional
well being yearns for some meaningful activity.

So much is on hold while I do this.
I am stunned sometimes by the Talents
given as a gift and how I can Waste so much
energy doing something like this.

The inner scream is loud enough
to shake trees.
I am not sure human being are intended
to be doing things like this.
Who made this UP?

Is there no other way to support
the good activities of government????

My body is seemingly cooperating
and allowing me to sit
after days of hip movement
but this reprieve from pain
will not last long.

please.

I see
I feel nothing Soul full in this.
This is why people get addicted
to something to get the mind off
something so below worthwhile human
activity.

Doing meaningless activity must be the cause of cancer...
doing something so meaningless
takes so much juice from people.

I am sad to say I do not find too many things
in life right now worth doing.

What is Mother Earth really asking of us?
Dare I ask?

Please...let me get through this and on with
something that feels important.

 

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