Accupuncture and other thoughts. I wonder if what I was feeling had to do with moving the energies through the points?

Date:   5/17/2006 1:50:00 PM ( 18 y ago)

May 16, 06
11:32 AM

Jessica gave me a good treatment yesterday,
something to called the Buddha Triangle.
Feeling somewhat better today. Kidneys have been
hurting in my low back for numbers of days.

Felt a lot of old pattern coming up yesterday,
tied in with going way up with some success,
and then way down. Lots of fear associated
with the Fall, or fear of the fall from grace
after being in the garden of joyful high, so to speak.

I was concerned about Whole Foods, and what
would happen next. I have put in about 50 hours on this.
Running lots of anxiety about this.
Called late last night and spoke to Bill.
Turns out there was a couple negative feedbacks
from customers who did not like being approached
as if I was telling them what strawberries to buy.

They made comments.

Lots of different kinds of shoppers on Sunday,
some grumpy, some delightful, some depressed,
some wanting to be left alone, some willing to interact.

Got tons of positive feedback as well in writing,
but I have not turned that in.

Going to give myself this very special day for
cleanup...I deserve it.

Good News! Whole Food's Bill, head of produce,
is into the continuity of the local strawberries continuing,
and liked the idea of being NOT being there with them.

I want to see how many will sell without me nurturing
the process. A big part was placement. They were hidden,
and somewhat out of view, it felt. I would like to go in
and speak to Bill tonight, and turn in my positive feedback.

Will call him later.
I feel I did pretty good.

I just blow people away no matter what...either
Up or Down...My energy is just not what people are use
to receiving.

I wonder if the pattern had something to do with the
accupuncture treatment?

When you move the energy...the stuff in the Crack comes
up...you can't move the Chi without issues being moved
around...the furniture, the baggage, etc has to come up
and be seen before it can move out.

When it comes up, we decide how we will deal with it.

I was thinking yesterday...how much of this anxiety
was based on something real, or just in my mind?

There are a ton of suppress broken dreams inside me,
I realize. The laundry list of them was showing itself.
I wonder if the treatment had something to do with this?
All things work together.

Glad to set a new pattern now and build upon it.

Also had some communications with Best Friend that
were disturbing. She reached out about ten days ago
wanting to reestablish "friendship." I would like friendship
to go with being "friendly." We just naturally seem to trigger
each other's stuff, and I can only treat this as a gift if I am wise.

I let her under my skin, and she what she says matters
to me, and how she says it. I didn't say anything worth
getting her plugged in. What I said was misinterpreted
and I was not clear the way I said it.

I was wanting to express the wonderment that when
we made love, I thought of her as a very sexy woman,
very loving, sensual, present, exciting. I did not relate
to her when we make love as being a mother. This all
came up around Mother's Day. I was in awe of her
as a mother of offspring. It is so amazing how a woman
can be so many things, play so many roles, and the
physicality of it. How her body can open to allow children
to come through.

Oh well...got to see again how easily what she says
can throw me off. Things are o.k. now. Hopefully we
will keep learning from what comes up between us.

your eg

12:37 PM

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