Morning positive thoughts and what I need to do today.

Date:   3/10/2006 9:37:52 AM ( 18 y ago)

Starting a regimen of Ayurvedic medicines
in herb form perscribed by a master
healer in that tradition. Many have received
outstanding results unseen in western medicine.

YOu can read some of my prelim research
on the herbs and this medicine in my blogs
yesterday.

5:12 AM
March 10, 06

My mind is awake and I am filled with many positive
visions after a day that had some depressing thoughts
as well as working with mundane issues.

Highlights came in the evening
with confirming a new housemate who will move
into the little room June 15. Another fabulous young student
from UCSD who is excited to garden. She also does
volunteer work gardening up at Camp Stevens in Julian.

I rented out the available space the day before to Angeline.
She is 40, and we have very strong attractions, low intensity,
and high compatibility by the Love Card system of Soul Divination.
(Camp work).

I did not feel to get out of bed this morning do write up the visions,
but trust they will come again.

these included:

1. letter to MVH staff that was very positive and sharing
history with Mark and asking for clarity about responses
from ex sec. What did she see? Angeline says do not
put too much into this.

To Do: Mailings....this is going to take more time that
I have right now....Organize list and can I take time to let them
know photos are coming? This would be a good idea.
I saw this action.

2. Relationship clarity personal: Time to be my best friend
and give to myself the energy I have been giving away, how painful
the experience of letting go..
All is well....so incredibly sorry I cannot be there for you now.
just need space to outgrow a severe pattern
and experience. I feel like returned merchandise that has been
desired and then returned again and again.
I need to accept that this is my life, make the most of it.
and I need to love myself now. Appointments.... I need to find
my boundaries for my own good. Love to you....always....

Severe trust issues are up for me...who can I count on?
Fear of abandonment comes up regarding new housemates.

I have to find a way to count on me.

We both need to
be able to trust we can count on what we say we will do,
otherwise how can anyone else count on us.
I need to feel safe that I can do what I say...doesn't work to
be putting energy into distancing for days,
and then let you in again, how extremely delightful
it is to talk to you.

Distancing to find myself... I need to find me.
Do not understand how to be just friends right now.
So very sorry for any pain caused. space
for now....please. I care about you more than I care about
me. Blessings...Blessings...to you....the deeper love always is.

[Wow...]


Little herb pills please work..let me be in charge of
pulling myself together with your natural support...

So what else was I envisoning this morning????
Gone.

Today...

Leslie, you have an appointment--a party tomorrow--
to celebrate Kathy's birthday. She is giving you a table
to show The Seven Love Cures. You have not called her
all week. Confirm what she wants you do do on the program.

You have Jason coming over tomorrow at 10 AM to see
the space. There is amazing past life association between you.

Put on Blinders, please, Love, Love, Love, Leslie...
feel the Love, please....from us.
from you for you...please...

Print up the three new Love Cards that Dali helped you make
while you were at Rina's. Now you have the FULL set of Post Cards.
Birth them today at Michael's Mail Boxes Express.

You said you would talk to Nathan at noon....

These are precious hours...sweet Leslie.

Blinders. please...nothing else...
make the jpegs of the new Love Cures.

Then, clean up your bed....

Inventory what you need to do to complete
with the Marketing event. You owe a lot of photos that
are promised.

{I am nervous about not uploading the photos first
from that event....and also making a file for the
Nuva photos and the one I promised Leslie Gelles...]

O.K. take a shower....
upload the photos...they bring through the
New Creations.

Lamination....afternoon...count your stock...
Go to Expedx and try one more time to see if Peach
Laminator works...if not order the expensive one
that will surely work from Jed.

Olympus...complete the order...
so you have what you need for the OTA
banquet...three sets of new batteries...
We want you to have new batteries now.

It rained a lot during the night....
Saturday and Sunday...to do:

get seeds in ground
collect rain water for seedlings.
Check on earthworms....

Enjoy the day...

Eat the rice cereal and take the herbs...
Day two herbs...take the full regimen...
shower now.


Call Zvi later...and see if you can go over their for Shabbat dinner...
Check in with Diane some time.

To Do Mundane:
Vacuum your room and bathroom...
FM later this afternoon.
It is Friday.

Make the most of each moment.

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March 10, 06
8:50 AM
Day two Ayurvedic medicines
morning...
yucky taste...full regimen taken
after some tablespoons of brown rice cereal.
yuck. yuck...yuck...turning my stomach almost...




 

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