Some things I would like to do this week....

Date:   2/15/2006 1:31:45 PM ( 18 y ago)

On less leak in my life.
Had a tire fixed free this morning
at Discount TIre Company.

http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=1259

My emotions are still raw from recent changes
in the Love department.

I feel a deep hurt
from the roller coaster ride
of feeling
wanted-unwanted
desired-undesired

as the woman who clearly is my best friend
feels available- unavailable
present- distant
as part of the pattern of our relating.

A good bit of this is my stuff. I am chosoing this
and the way i view this coming and going.

I also know that any shifts I make in consciousness
will likely be shared by her. We are both wanting a new pattern.

I could just reread "Because She is a Woman,"
Love Cure #1 and understand that it is natural
for a Woman to take space and for a man to give space.

On the other hand, the hurt I am feeling goes deeper
in unresolved childhood patterns that are triggered.

I had a good night of rest with lots of healing feelings
but then these feelings came up.

I was out getting my tire fixed. I just closed my eyes
and starting feeling Mother Earth, and asking her
to fill me with her Love. I wanted to be one with her.

There are things I would like to do that are very practical
today.

About a month ago, the folks from the Natural Product Expo West
called to help me get my regular passes to the show.
I was in a meeting, and then did not call back.

I also want to secure my press pass for the show.

Yesterday, I returned the laminator that has not been working
and ended up using the laminator down at Michael's Mail Boxes
Express.

Kung Food, a vegetarian restaurant, wants some copies for their
shelf. I had them last night.

I also want to track down the copies I left at the OB People's Food Coop.

On a bigger scale, I would like to contact Mark Victor Hansen
and rise my energies up to attend his Marketing Seminar in Early
March.

In the background of my mind--is the changes being asked at the house
here.

I need a new housemate. I wrote a revised ad. I better complete that.
Then, I need to go down to the Washington Mutual and get more information
about the practical aspects of being able to get a morgage under my
new name. What will this take? Can I Do it?

My desk is also filled with bills...it would be good to do all that.

Lots to do...I wish I were feeling stronger in myself,
but need to move forward anyway.

love to me and you both in all you have to do.

Taking that little nail out was one less leak

 

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