fretting inside...

Date:   1/30/2006 12:11:02 PM ( 18 y ago)

Monday morning
January 30, 06
10:00 AM

Standing in the dining room
laminating The Seven Love Cures.
I am having to baby each one.
This laminator is not working as it should
or it is me not working as I should?

I keep adjusting the temperature.
The dial seems to have a area within the green lines
for the density of the plastic.

It is not coming out perfect.
It is almost good enough, but not perfect.

I still have to go down and get a minor repair down
on the EG Mobile. There is a bar you step on below
the side door and it broke when I put weight on it last night.

So with help, we roped it up and I need to go into Asgede,
my mechanic.

A couple times this morning, my housemate walked by
without saying anything, the one who is moving out
unexpectedly. She is a jewel of hope and inspiration
as she does her Vegan mainly raw things around the house.

Standing here laminating.
I am looking into the living room and feel like
sitting down in the middle of the space crying,
or maybe meditating.

I so want to hold on to this house, not let it be sold
to some other person; and there are so many growth
patterns to deal with living with seven others.

It is a profound challenge of all my wits, and talents.

I love this place, the physical landscape, the history I have
with this land. I have all I need to succeed here,
maybe too much.

Wrote letters to Co-owner this morning saying
I would not be available to work with house things
this week. I am focused on bringing out the Love Cures.

So many things need to be ironed out here
but it is does not feel as simple as laminating
plastic sheets together.

Very tired...weary...havn't been floating...
with what is happening.

What do I do with the laminator?
What do I do with me?

eg

10:09 AM
January 30, 06
10:10 AM

12:19 PM

Made some sets...
going to Asgede now...
then stop at Michaels Mail Boxes to see if I can identify
if it is lamination plastic that is not working...again...

Photos? If I want to get some in...I have to jump on this
today...I would like a white one...words of "Because She is a Woman.:"

 

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