Turning frustration in a healing moment and breathing into it.

Date:   1/19/2006 5:10:20 PM ( 18 y ago)

How do I make things Happen?

When I am at a Conference
it is easier to create an Enchanted Garden
Installation, a Sacred Space where
there is a umbilical cord so to speak
between Heaven and Earth.

When I am home this is more difficult.

I have not gotten into the main work
I thought I would be doing today.

I wanted to get the photos that go with
The Seven Love Cures in Very Organized Files.

There was an appraiser here today.
His name is Ed Woods from Washington Mutual.

He said that an 11,000 square foot house down
the street was appraised for $525,000 a couple weeks
ago. This house is near 22,000 square feet and has
1/3 acre. He said he was going to look in the neighborhood
for other similar properties.

This is an extremely unique property.
There are fruit trees and it is ideal for someone
who wants a very unusual natural place to live in the city.

I spent time uploading and printed some photos
of three of the housemates. I took a good picture of Ed
Woods. I want to create an Altar to the House Ownership
coming into my hands.

The Altar will begin with a notebook, where here in this world
I can gather the energies that I need to set in motion.

Organizing things in this world gets very fragmented for me
unless I create a powerful spiritual energy behind it,
so I can get the Soul of what I am doing into the physical.

It is a sunny day outside. IT is around 2:56 PM.
It is such a forboding project for me, to take the steps
to bring such a project as swithing House Ownership
into my hands.

There are many energy leaks associated with this property,
things I will have to overcome.

I want to see in print the Beautiful Vision I want to see.

This is how I suceed at Conferences or special events
where there are many, many energies. I go in with a Notebook
in hand, something that contains Walking Papers.

I go very, very deep in the Archetype of the Soul of what I do
to bring down to Earth what I want to see here.

This is part of the Plant Your Dream way I work.

Each Event I do has a gameplan, something I want to
See happen. I have to see it clearly inside me--
and then hold to Crystal Clear Intentions to bring in
through of the world of Imagination to the world of 3D here.

I have been beating myself up--and running some
thoughts of failure and frustration for a few hours because
I have not done what I said I would this morning.

I have been running the thought that Judith Reno
spoke about in our counseling session last night,
that I go off into the spiritual realms and get very excited
but I often fragment when I come into this world.

I am so frustrated by having so many beautiful things
on the shelf and not out in the world. That is churning
inside me now.

I also got a call from the Natural Product Expo West Regitration
people right when the appraiser was here.
I told them to call back in an hour for the names for badges.
I am running those emotions too--

Trust...Leslie...they will call back.

...also, I am feel anxious about the communications
with the OTA...for the banquet at NPEW. No calls back.
Will I be the photo person again this year?
I want to get that in motion...

I had to seize the moment with the Appraiser.
I felt I had to make those photos of the three housemates
to instill a sense inside of something that took a lot of energy
to accomplish--getting these very three great housemates
that are more in harmony with me that the previous residents
in those rooms.

I want to take a moment to breathe
breathe that in--
I can do what I set out to do...

I can overcome this deep feeling inside
that is not far from the surface that I can See
before my eyes what I set out to Seed.

Regroup, Leslie, get some movement going
in the sun...please...then take a nap...
and then do the work you said you would do today
with the Love Cure Photos...

I really need to start being kinder to myself
and spending more time moving my body.




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