Go to have some fun tonight. Here is a sort of poem i just wrote

Date:   10/15/2005 6:49:05 PM ( 19 y ago)

Bare Breasted Tantra Night

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month
and in honor of this event
the local Goddesses and God Men
will be getting together bare breasted
at a San Diego Puja tonight.

Spent a lot of time in the graveyard
this morning stopping long enough
to see that the longing I have been feeling
for the Goddess has a layer underneath.

I am a little boy.
My mother is out for the night
serving the PTA God damn it
and there is this Bayer aspirin commercial
entertaining her little one at home alone.
The headache and chills run deep.

I can't say how many times that happened--
this home alone routine--
only that the figments of my imagination
had beings out side my window and in the
closet all night and I cannot say how many
nights I felt terror.

This all ended of course when I was 12.
Mom went into the hospital and had both
breasts cut off, then she was taken to the other
side of town where I never saw her, the next
thing I knew Aunt Sadie was riding me in her
car as big as a limmo in route to the cemetery.

My dad wasn't much more present.
He seemed to live doing prayers for the dead
more than being with me. He is still alive and once
in his elder years, I gave him an enema
hoping to open up his bowels. We later discovered
his bladder was stuck shut from years of holding
pee in. He had a whole community to serve
and hardly time to go to the bathroom.
I climbed in bed, hugged him, and said,
you better get the love now, because
I can't promise I can be do the prayers you do for others.

So here I am in terror this morning
and realizing the only pleasures of life
that get me through all this is rising up
into my Soul where Your Enchanted Gardener lives,
loves and plays.

Ever so often comes the rare moments
when the Goddess really shows up
and I come down to earth. So very sad
to be in need of another human being
to make the connection with earth,
or so it seems right now, but of course,
that's just what's up NOW to be seen and loved.

Tomorrow is another day, and I have
a lot of plant friends, and New Ways to
learn to Connect inside me.

Thank God I have a whole life time to work this all
out. i've done pretty well at it,
lots of inspired writing, lots of sharing of deep love
and affection, lots of becoming the World's Greatest Lover
from seeing what a woman and this man goes through to rise.

I am woman too. For a number of years I have had this little pretty
dress made of rayon covered with fruits.
In the back of my mind I thought
there would be some sweet lady who would like to try it on,
someone I hadn't met yet.

Tonight, I'm pulling it down to waist level
and wearing it myself; sort of a statement of
here I am and its me, and i love me; quite the costume.
I'm stringing all kinds of herbals and seed packets
on the bottom half of me, and saying goodbye to all
the f***in prayers I heard the other day that only
make me feel I don't have a clue who God is.

It's Halloween
and i've had enough time in the graveyard.

Skin and some sights for sore eyes
are up tonight.

Your Enchanted Gardener and the man
I am--all of me--are going out to play.
Thank God I live in a city
where bare breasted women and men
are on the menu.

4:47 PM
October 15, 05


Cancer Remedy
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=864

Love Ground:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=870

"Be Brief!" The Rabbi Said
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=870


5;39 PM

just filled a basket with aromatic rosemary,
chocolate peppermint, peppermint scented geranium.
Some leaves from the bamboo for writing notes.
Got some Love Cures for the raffle.
Will pick some aloe vera.

This is going to be fun.


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This is going to be a FUN exciting, erotic, exotic Halloween Puja!!!

Come in Costume :-))

Dress up the bottom,
decorate the top
(topless encouraged while decorating it with beads, feathers, lingerie, pasties, scarves, etc.)

The Goddesses will set up their "nest" and the Gods will rotate.

Goddesses please bring:
- Pad or Blanket to lie on
- Sarongs. silks, etc. to decorate your "nest"
- 2 Pillows
- any object you would like to beautify your nest

Gods please bring:
- 1 Pillow

If you are gender balancing or you signed up as a Couple, please organize it so that both of you arrive together or the Goddess arrives first. Thank you.


COST:
$30 per person
$50 per couple

PROGRAM:
7:30pm - Registration and socializing
8:30pm - Puja
10:30 - Socializing and Dancing
11:00pm - Clean Up Party

We will be raffling a few items to donate the proceeds to the American Cancer Society so bring some extra $$$ for this good cause.

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month. This puja is dedicated to the celebration of Life for all who have survived cancer. Goddesses who have a history of breast cancer are especially welcome to come and reaffirm their beauty and sensuality at this puja.

Let us celebrate Life, Sensuality and Ourselves!

Hugs,
Silvie






 

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