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Date:   7/7/2005 7:14:12 PM ( 19 y ago)

Not to much sleep the last couple nights.
Everything is coming up at once.

On top of all the Conference things that are
like babies all crying for attention
I am feeling shaken by the process of
getting a new housemate at our
Enchanted Garden Intentional Community.

So here I am moving on details
for the conference at the same time
house manager demands are up,
as well as core healing going on
as I and my best friend clarify our relationship.
I am grateful to say that is going well
and I am pleased.

I feel she is supporting me, and we are both
going to make some major healing come out of this.

I believe that if one man and one woman will be present
through hearing each other the whole human family
is taking steps toward the consciousness that is
the Enchanted Garden.

This is the return to Eden.
We left the garden of consciousness through
misunderstanding between man and woman.
We reenter the garden through deeper compassion
for each other and realizing that it is valuable
to allow relationship to be our teacher.

In spirit, we do not have bodies.
Spirit out of body likes to hang around us humans
and they too get a lot from watching us.

It is one thing to be a Coach without a body.
It is another to feel the pleasure and pain that can
come from two humans realizing that it is the ultimate
healing opportunity to not run, but feel through the
cracks.

Through this Soul enters the earth more.
This is what is meant by Soul Growth.

The Soul is already in perfection, but the Soul comes
to earth through the personal growth we do.

So congratulations to all of you for hanging in there
through not only the pleasures of human closeness
but the personal growth that comes as we keep moving
and shifting.

Better We have internal earthquakes than the Earth
have to act out because we will not be responsible for
the personal growth that is a pre-requisite to living on earth.

Today, a woman named Lauren moved into the house.
She will take the place of Suzannah who is moving back
to Hawaii.

Suzannah took the place of Damian who was moving to Hawaii.
Suzannah came from the exact area of Hawaii where Damian
was moving! Not that is Enchanting Gardening at its finest.

Suzannah has never really acclimated to San Diego.
She is moving home where she has land.

Today Lauren showed up.
She is 23 and entering premed.
She is a delight and full of spirit and willingness to garden.

We went through a garden tour and she loved the place.

This is what she wrote

"My first day at the Enchanted Garden has been wonderful.
It is a beautiful palce with so many different plants, herbs, adn flowers--
everything smells so good and fresh. The house is cute.
I love how homey it feels and all the books I will get to read.
The people I've met so far seem down-to-earth and I look
forward to gettingto know them and meet the others.
I think this enchanted garden will help me keep balance
in my stressful days and help me focus on what's
truly important in my life."

She gave me a full LMR that will stand as her deposit,
and the money will be in the bank tomorrow.

She works at Whole Foods...where I shop...though not
the same one.

She is delightfully healthy and at her peak of youth.

She majored in environmental studies at the U of Michigan
and has spend two months in Costa Rica
doing Agro-ecology.

In my tiredness, I started to feel all the wounds
I am harboring for past experiences in the roommate search
process.

That time in January it was a full time job for more than two months,
and very stressful. I had two vacancies.

I had two women commit to living here and give deposit money
and then back out.

I did not feel support from one or two housemates in particular
who raised more red flags than gave them an idea that they would be
safe and comfortable here.

When housemates call, there are some who feel appropriate.
If feels like putting out your best effort to give some one
time. Most of the time they do not fit, or want to move in.

The difficult ones are the ones that seem to fit, go home
and think about it, and then say no.

then, there are ones who call and never show.

I am very very tired. I already had one nap
and I am ready for another.

phone...more later







 

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