Checking in with myself, Friday morning shock, disbelief, and revelations of what I need to do,

Date:   6/24/2005 9:17:58 AM ( 19 y ago)

Garden Management Journal;

I have been working unendingly
on this International Feng Shui Conference
sitting at my computer many hours
of the day.

The right side of my body is hurting.
I am waking during the night with
pain in my right shoulder.
My mobility is lessened
and I am having pain putting on a shirt.

I could use some body work on a regular basis
these days. I focused my weekly accupuncture
on the shoulder.

I am feeling a deep pain, but too severe
in the area above my above my butt
on the right side, about two inches below
where I felt the kidneys.

I have concern that I am feeling kidney pain,
light but present during the night.

I am eating a few foods.
My stable is basmati rice with raisins
cooked for a long time.

My bowel accepts this.

I have been eating chicken as a source
of protein, cooked in a crock pot with
chinese herbs. It is the finest quality chicken
from friends who raise their animals outside
the box and cage. This is not force fed food.
This is grown without any antibiotics, hormones,
and what nots.

I am adding more steamed vegetables and would like to add more.

I have been pretty good at staying away from sweets this week.

I eat a lot of very fresh bee pollen that I get from Robert
at the FM on Sunday.

I may not be drinking enough water.

I still find good from the Trace Minerals called MYVITA\
that I order from Caroline Johnson in Arizona.
I intuited this product, remembering it from my days
when I was introduced to it at Jensen's ranch.

The main supplement making a difference for me now
is the acidophilus. The brand is called...
I wrote a bog about it. There is a dairyless variety
and I am using that this week. 50 billion buggers.

This has made a very big difference.

I was having intense diarrhea for about 10 days before
ten days ago. The acidophilus turned it around.

I am working on this Feng Shui Conference as if life
depended on it. I believe to some extent it does.

We have reinforcements coming to San Diego.
60 innovators of solutions that the world deeply needs to
hear now.

San Diego is not yet awake to the Conference.
It can make a difference.

I am intensely frustrated by the level of detail it takes
just to get out an ad for The Light Connection.
I am working with two editiors, but even after both
look at it, I send it out, and what do you know,
more errors are seen by others.

I am questioning my ability.

A couple weeks ago, Suzanne, a delightful
housemate, came back from Hawaii and told me
she was moving back to Hawaii.

I have not been in any frame of energy to do with this.
Then a couple nights ago, I overheard, another housemate
discussing her thoughts to move.
This was confirmed.

We spoke about her timing last night.
She expects that her 30 day notice, actually 40 in since
she announced it, begins on the day she announced
her desire to move.

I was too tired to clarify, that a 30 day notice, or a 45 day notice
to vacate needs to begin with the 15 before the month the person
wants to move.

I cannot be paying and finding people to move in on the 22nd
of July without a lot of effort, in this particular case.

I would go nuts if people just gave me 30 days notice
as they wanted any time of the month, as she imagines
is the way she sees it.

I am going to make this perfectly clear on the EG Communtiy
website right now.

http://www.lesliegoldman.com/Enchanted_Garden_Intentional_Community/id34.htm



There are a couple other question marks about
residents who may want to move out.

When residents move out, this many times becomes
a full time job for me.

IT is not like I can use another full time job right now.

I am very frustrated that for the life of me, I cannot
get to working on my Image site, where I want to put
up photos that people can buy.

Yesterday, I got the shocking news from Tim, the graphic
designer from The Light Connection, that the photos I plan to sell
may not have the right original size to hold up as professional prints.

I have to check this out before going full on with developing marketing.

I need to take some sample digital images and turn them in in various
sizes. That is the only way I will know.

I went to bed in shock.

I sent out the "finished" ad for The Light Connection. I received feedback
that it was too busy SIMPLIFY. A basic detail is left out...the time for
the Hilton Garden gathering...I will insert that.

The Title:

Get a Real 'University' Education in 5 Days!

is over the head of a number of people who are reading this title.

I thought it was clever and brilliant.

The second line is

Careers for a Sustainable World.

I am wanting to get away from the BLOCK
that many people in the next wave of energy wholeness
consciousness have a very NARROW view of
what Feng Shui is. IT is not what they imagine.

Consciousness emerges from time to time out of the need
of people. There is a deep need now for wholeness to be reborn
in our world, and so Feng Shui came up into consciousness
about ten years ago.

Feng Shui was ONE system of wholness energy flow awareness
that came from the orient, just like acupuncture came from the Orient
when people needed to find a more whole integrated healing model
to replace the conventional broken medical system.

Feng Shui is a crucial piece of the Triagle of TMC. Traditional Chinese Medicine. The third leg of the triangle is Macrobiotic eating.

Most people do not understand macrobiotic eating.

Szekely used the term about 50 years ago as well.

A person can be raw and eat macrobiotic.
IT means balancing the Lifestyle with the environment.

An example of this is...you would not eat cheese if you lived
in the desert. You would not eat raw fruit if you were an Alaskan native.
(however, you might be in BALANCE eating raw blubber of an animal.).

I need to write an article about
What a Real 'University' is.

The idea for the title came to me when I was driven
past our factory University down the street called SDSU.
They produce tons of graduates each year to fit into our broken
fragmented system. The school received grants from biotech
and whatnots. They are funded by science and fragmented
models that kill the Tree of Life.

A Real 'University' education trained people to make a living
in harmony with Life, with the Tree of Life.

This conference offers insight and direction into the Careers
that fit with living in a Sustainable World.

The teachers are themselves highly dedicated to serving humanity.
You can see this from reading their websites.

It has been a good week of learning to collaborate...
Collaboration is a key to living Life.

Gardening is labor intensive. Life is labor intensive,
so to speak. Love is labor intensive so to speak.

LIfe asks attention. Life asks that we dig up all our stuff.
Intimacy asks being intimate with our light and areas
that are darkened.

We are TRYING to form a TEAM for this conference.

I am AWARE NOW that the little room will be available
July 22, about 10 days before the Conference.

I need a good assistant now, a llive in assistant.

IF housemates want to move out now, NOW is the TIME
to move the energy to the next level that this
Enchanted Garden Intentional Community needs
to be in harmony with the garden.

I need housemates that realize that the rent includes
living on a Value-Added piece of property that offers
open space and wildness where their they can plant
dreams.

The untility bills are high. We water a lot of plants.
The utilitiy bills cover the watering of the plants.

My learning disability comes up when I deal with the money numbers
of budgets for the house.

I could use an assistant to help with this so I can be freed more
of this task. IT is perfect to put out the word for someone from the
Feng Shui Conference who would like to space for part of july and
August.

I need everyone in the next wave who lives here to be on the program
of appreciating what we have here.

There is a calling for me to buy this place from the other co-owners.
There is an opportunity for this to be run by a non-profit that is already set up.

The land itself is asking for care and love.
I will put some revisions on the EG Community website.
I will work with one image.
I will get the refinements done to The Light Connection
article.

I would like to write about what is a Real University Education
as a blog.

My arms are stiff from the energy of writing now.

I ended up in the emergency hospital the night before
the Feng Shui conference last year. That is when I got
disrupted by bowel and started the wave of diarrhea.
My system went into shock and disbelief taking Ibuprohen
and it has not yet fully recovered.

I could use more loving expression myself, coming at me,
and more from me to me. Watering some plants will help.

The source of my diarrhea now has become unmet needs.
I am covering over a deep range of emotions
that I am putting out so much and have love to share
but the sweetness of life coming at me
is mainly from food. I suffer isolation at times
but contact with others via email about the conference
and other connection lifts me.

I am feeling the sacrificial lamb,
a very inspired sacrificial tired lamb.

your eg

 

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