bedtime check in,

Date:   5/25/2005 12:55:56 AM ( 19 y ago)

it is around 10:30 PM Tuesday night.
I am sitting here in my Pajama's after a shower
and wanted to Blog before getting into bed.

I received two calls today from the two people
who I was waiting to hear from, the two people
that I wrote about here:

http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=329

The one appreciated my candor.
I appreciated hers as well.

She expressed different feelings she had
about Saturday.

She is in a committed relationship.
it is sweet having a woman say that
she was asking herself what was appropriate.

It is nice to feel that she was drawn and felt
something, even to have to ask herself this question
made me feel good, and it was stirring at the same time.

It makes me want to ask more about what she was feeling
in that moment.

I was up early at 4 AM answering a letter from the primary co-owner
of this house. I am a minor co-owner. She is again asking me to
buy her out and I was responding in a lengthy checking in.

I was tired a lot all day, but I enjoyed going back to the Pacific College of
Oriental Medicine where I had an accupuncture treatment in the clinic.
The intern was quite good.

I bring flowers in trade for the treatment.

I made two bouquets there in the student lounge
and enjoyed playing with the students who all seemed
very attractive and open today.

I imagine it was a reflection of what I was feeling.

I was looking cute
myself I thought.

Even at Whole Foods, people seemed open and I had a sense that
dreams I have felt blocked now seemed more available and alive.

I believe it was because of the energy that was shared here
on Saturday during the very uplifiting Prayer meeting we had.

I also received an email from Ellen Dosick, the wife of the Rabbi
who led the services on Saturday here.
She responded to my feelings that I felt lots of emotions being
triggered as a result of Saturday.

This is what she wrote:

"Hi Love!
Yes, it was an amazing and high and beautiful experience on Shabbat. Yes,
the Garden was sooooo alive. Yes, you are fully present, and not many are.
Thank you for your joy. People want Paradise so badly, and are so afraid that
they are not deserving, and will be kicked out again, that they hesitate at the
Garden Gate, and run away. If you feel sad and pissed about this, imagine what God feels! It's not a you-rejection, it's a God-rejection.
Which just makes us cry even harder."

Much love in all you are doing and need to do,
I wish you all a nice rest in the arms of Angels.

Your Enchanted Gardener,
Leslie




 

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