A Journey of Awakening, Looking at the energies of the these 49 days between, Pesach and Shavuot... Gevurah asks we develop our "NO!"

Date:   5/3/2005 4:58:02 AM ( 19 y ago)

I woke up around 1:30 AM with a vision of a sword in my mind,
the sword that King David used to cut off the head of Goliath, the
Philistine giant.

In this Biblical story, David gathers stones and puts them in
his slingshot. The five stones become one, and he, with great FOCUS
and exercising the attributes of
Judgement
Strength.
Solidity and
limits
hits the forehead of Goliath and slays him.

These qualities of judgement, strength, Soidity, and llmits
are associated with Gevurah... one of the Sephira on the Tree of Life..

Gevurah is our ability to set limits. It is our ability to say "NO!"

David is portrayed as small in stature, and Goliath as very large.

The inspiration for this vision of the sword
was planted in me because I attrended
a weekend Passover retreat
April 29-30, May 1 with a very enlightened Tribe of ecletic Jewish family of friends, not all Jewish, who have gotten together each year for the last ten to create a "Passover Village" on the land.

Generally the "Tribe" meets in Joshua Tree in the Desert.

This year they met on the Wright Land in Malibu.
http://elwright.net/wrightway/
This is land owned by the descendents of Frank Lloyd Wright,
the famous architect.

The centerpiece of the weekend was a Star of David with areas where people would sit and meditate on various points
related to the Kabbalistic Tree of Life.

I will give an orientation to the Tree of Life tomorrow, when I have more
energy.

The Sephira focus of the weekend was Malkuth Malkuth represents "Kingdom" and "Body." In other words manifesttation in the world.

David, on this focus of the Tree of Life here, and in our story,
uses the quality of Gevurah, the power to say "NO!" totake a stand,
to slay this giant.

On the Journey from Enslavement to Freedom, each of us are asked
to come to terms with summoning our capacity to say YES--called
Chesed, as well as our capacity to say NO.

Without both in balance, we can get ourselves in deep trouble.

I personally find it easy to give, give, give.
I am naturally generous.
Loveingkindness--Chesed-- is something that comes naturally to me.

Yet, I have had a lifelong issue with being walked over--
and not being able to take a stand.

Can you relate?????

How strong is your capacity to say YES?
How balanced is it with your Ca[acity to Say NO?

Do you have a strong YES as well as NO in your LIFE?

Do others take advantage of you?

Are you willing to say what you need to say when you have to say it?

The past month, I have been going back to my childhood
and reliving stuck places in my energy.

These places created brokenness inside me...
and allowed me to create arthritis.

A healthy person has the ability to say YES as well as NO.
A healthy person will stand up in the face of injustice
and defend what must be defended. They will defend
their inner child. They will defend their feminine inner being.

A healthy person can slay a giant, or something that seems
bigger than life, if he/she can manifest the attributes that
go with Gevurah.

I will be exploring this more soon....

Here is one story...I have told elsewhere on this Blog...

As a child and teen, I grew up in a family that was very vocal...
we all yelled a lot. We all raged to some degree. My father was
the leader of the pack.

He would yell, and he would yell at me.
My mother took it all in. I do not remember her yelling too much.

She died of cancer at 52. Before she died, she had her
breasts removed from the cancer. Then she started to develop
hip problems.

I yelled too. When I was a teen my father remarried. My stepmother
is still alive.

She would yell, I would yell back. She had a military background.
When I yelled back, she would become frustrated. Then she would run away--literally. This was hurting my father. One day he told me to shut up because I was hurting his marriage.

I held it in. Some create cancer, some arthritis.
We each choose our own diseases. The causes are often
cut off energies.

So I shut up, and I started to develop arthritis.
I started to develop hip problems.
i was very close to my mother...

We stop speaking. We stop writing. We stop sharing.

This is why Blogging can be so therapeutic.

Right now, I am feeling an intense anger.
I feel I was stepped upon by Lover,
my "on again, off again lover."

I am somewhat feeling contained about this...
I am holding myself back from fully expressing
because she said she does not like me making public
her personal life.

This is something I will come to terms with.

I am looking at where I feel an injustice has been committed
against me by her.

I am looking at where I have committed injustice against her.

It is all part of the journey from ensalvement to awakening.

I hope you can relate to what I am saying.
I hope you find personal relevance here
in the Blogs I will be doing on the Tree of Life.

Pardon any unclarity here.

Time to go back to bed.

3:19 AM
May 3, 2005
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The Kaballistic Tree of Life is a facinating study, and during the days
between Pesach, the Passover, and Shuvuot, 49 days later, each person, no matter of what religious or spiritual orientation, can use these daily
meditative practices to take a six week personal journey from enslavement
to Freedom, symbolized by meeting with others at Mt Sinai, where God delivers the 10 commandments.

Many in mystical Judaism, or Jewish Renewal, also celebrate the 50 day--
the meeting at the Mountain--as a time to reinact a personal :"marriage to God."

One of the most powerful books on this subject--one that I have personnally used is called A Journey to Awakening Kabalistic Meditations on the Tree of Life. It is by Rabbi Ted Falcon.


The counting starts the Second night of
Passover. We are now entering the second week,
when the our mediations for Awakening focus
on Gevurah, the ability to say "NO!"
and take a stand.

Week 1: Chesed: Mercy and Lovingkindness. This sephirah relates to water and flow is manifest in fish.

Week 2: Gevurah: Judgement and Strength. Solidity and limits, manifest in mountains.

Week 3: Tiferet: Beauty and Rest, manifest in not doing

Week 4: Netzach: Eternity and Victory, manifest in the future.

Week 5: Hod: Reverberation and Glory, manifesting in learning and reflecting G-d's glory.

Week 6: Yesod: Foundation and Ego, manifesting in our connections with others.

Week 7: Malchut: Kingdom and the Body, manifesting in our teachers and the chain of tradition that is Judaism.

exerpted from:

http://www.coejl.org/programbank/displayprog.php?id=132

For more about Counting the Omer...this Journey
and an Enchanted Garden perspective see the link below.

Please let me know how you relate to what i am saying here!


 

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