I leave for a trip today to the Natural Products Expo West. I am beginning the day early. If I forget something as simple as the connector to upload photos, I can cause myself serious stress on this trip and impact my professional success. I am reminded of something Dr. Jensen said...

Date:   3/16/2005 9:59:59 AM ( 19 y ago)

7:16 AM

It is early morning the day of my departure for the Natural
Products Expo West.

I am stunned by deep lessons that I need to know for better health.

It is important that I take time to capture these insights, so I am blogging. I want to include my CureZone Family in a potentiallly momumental life changiing journey of discovery.

I could be potentially overwhelmed by all the details that will ensure the success of this trip.

I don't want to beat myself up for ways that I might have used
my time more wisely.

The point is being driven home to be, that I have not been conscious of my health lately. Does a person who is
"sick" really know that they are sick? I have been leaving
things all over the place and it has been costing me tremendously. It has impacted my potential for success.

I am basically very tired, tired from doing too much.

It is important to finish things. It is important to have a place for things and make sure we take the time to put them back.

It is important to slow down and as a meditation take the time to really tie our camels before we go on to the next thing.

We cannot leave things half done, because they can bite us in the butt.

Sunday, I stopped to take some photos of a young woman from Turkey at the Farmers' Market. She had a lovely energy.
She was the cousin of my friend Arslan from Bosnia who makes meat dishes. I was beyond tired.

It was one more thing, but I wanted the energy of doing this thing.

The young women were very pleased with the photos,
and Arslan said, "Thank You, Brother!" when he saw the photos, and after I said I would print one up for him.

"Brother!" he said, I was so deeply moved. I really need
brothers and sisters right now. I imagine we all do, especially when we are in need and low energy.

I was in such an altered state, and so pre-occupied
about his gesture of kindness that I drove off from the market
and LEFT my whole cart, my wheelie, and my basket,
and my notebook of materials at the market.

I did not discover this until I got home. Then I had to take 50 minutes to go back and forth to the farmer to retrieve it.
At first I did not see the wheelie. But I kept remembering
other times I had misplaced things. I have learned that
"Whatever is ours, we cannot lose, and whatever is not ours we cannot keep." Sometimes, we do lose things, and it is unexplainable. It is often a lesson that we need to learn, a deep lesson, a habit pattern that we are being asked to learn so we will stop causing ourselfs pain.

This issue of prosperity is coming up, the issue of knowing when to spend money, even when we are feeling poor.

That issue is coming up for me right now.

I do not have money to spare...that is my attitude. I am concerned about spending the money for the motel room for four nights. I am concerned with intense bills that I have been paying in the last four days for this trip, all on credit.

I remember once being at an important conference.
I was feeling "poor.," that day too.

I wanted to save dollars, so I took my VW van out of the
first class parking lot at $12.00 a night--a lot with adequate
protection--and parked in a lot for $5.00 that seemed
more convenient to the borrowed floor where I was camping for the night to save money.

In the morning, my Van containing numbers of sacred
objects that did not deserve to be left there, were missing.
The whole vehicle was stolen! All to save $7,00.

I never saw it again.

Another time, I had an early morning class I was to MC for Passove_Easter at a Whole Life Expo. I had a choice of
going to stay with a friend, but the expense of energy would
have cost a lot in stress. I decided to stay in my connected state, and do it the best way, irregardless of cost.

I checked into the closest hotel. It cost more than $100.00 for the night. I checked in close to 11 PM Saturday night, and I checked out Sunday morning around 7 AM.

That Saturday night I was tired as well.

I had some very important signatures on a piece of paper, signers of a Declaration of Interdependence I had written.
These names were meant to go on a poster. Each had given me money. It was an irreplacable list.

The next morning, I went back to Mosconi Center, a block away. I was still in an Altered state of high elevation. I was running my Soul energies. I was being carried by spirit because I had a very important role to play that morning.

My thoughts were highly resonant with my Soul and the Spirit in all things.

I wanted that paper back for peace of mind.

I retraced my steps the night before.

Without viewing, I reached into a trash can that was
neaby one of the possible places I had been the night before.
I pulled out the paper with the names.

I pulled it out from a trash can on the second floor of a building where cleanup crews had been working all night.
Go explain.

How did this Happen, dear CureZone Family?

What are the forces that keep us connected when we
are running our Soul energies?

Can we be sick, can we be tired when we are about
our life purpose?

Can we lose what is ours when we are connected
with the spirit in all things?

And so this morning, I thank you all for your gracious
time in listening to my early morning preparations.

Thank you for your energy. My energy is very tired
right now, and there are legions of details to do today
before I rest up in Anaheim.

I want to make sure I have done what is essential.
I will have to let somethings go, so that I respect
my energy levels that are not high now.

At least my diarrhea is behaving because I am not
taking liberties with my diet. I can't afford to have diarrhea now.

My goal is to get there in one piece.
My goal is the do a good job as photographer
Thursday night for the Organic Trade Association
banquet.

That is my main objective. I have to keep that in mind.

I can feel bad about many things right now, but
I will make remedies and improve other things another time.

Get there. Be rested enough to do the job. Do not
spend my energies in a way that I end of so depleted
that I am not at my best Thursday night.

That's an assignment, and not my nature.

I am reminded of a story Dr. Jensen would tell.

Two heart surgeons were in a critical operation.

One turns to the other, goes silent, takes a deep
breathe, and says to the other.

"We must take time.
We haven't a moment to lose."

Your Enchanted Gardener

7:54 AM
March 16, 2005





 

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