I am getting expenive lessons about the cost of doing too much. Today, I lost a $600.00 camera with some precious digitals. Then I had to buy a new one for $939.92.

Date:   3/14/2005 11:31:15 PM ( 19 y ago)

I asked my friends to comment on the question,
"Is having and doing too much keeping you from being healthy?"

One dear friend, responded with this comment:

"Yes, It is keeping me from being healthy.

I remember years ago going to my nursing teacher, and him telling me: " you remind me of a person getting on a horse and galloping in all directions......" I am still that doing a bit of this, a bit of that. very in-efficient. I guess subconsciously I know that puttting all my eggs in one basket is not
safe........I know that pooling resources into one channeled passion is much more conducive toa happy success..........so thats the challenge. knowing what I want, pruning the rest away, and watching the main branch grow........no clutter
of side- tangles.

How to do this????????? Tell me when u find out.
love, XXX."


Here is my response to my friend:


I can really relate to what you are saying here.

I caused myself a lot of pain and stress today doing
what you are describing--doing too much,
and burning the candle not only at both ends,
but up the middle!!!!

I imagine the pain eventually gets so bad
that we accept the high cost of doing too much in
too many directions.

At my age--57--doing too much leads to burnout,
and burnout leads to mistakes--costly mistakes.

Today, I was very tired. I went to get my car ready for the trip to the Natural Products Expo West in three days. I stopped to get a haircut. I stopped to buy some fresh fish to make tomorrow. In my weariness from doing too much, I likely left the door open to the EG Mobile.

The cost was losing my camera, a $600.00 camera with
two expensive memory cards and a brand new $80.00 memory cardI bought a half hour before.

So on top of the stress of what I already had going,
and feeling short of money already, I heaped on top of this,
having to locate a new camera. This was diffcult.

In my haste, I almost bought a model that would not have served me!

Then, I had to go buy another camera that is similar but has featuresI will need to learn so that I can use it under the pressure of being protographer for a very prestigious banquet in three days for the Organic Trade Association.

The credit card bill for the new camera was over $900.00 today with accessories.

it brings up so many deep questions?

What do I want to be?

How do I want to spend my time?

How shameful to have so many books on the shelf that are not out giving pleasure and education to others, and bringing me back an income.

How shameful to have been giving the gift of being a poet, a poet with incredible finished works that could be earning income, if I were focusing on nothing but this.

And then there is being a photographer. There are so many things I will still have to learn to reach fulfillment if I fully commit to this success. I would like to bring out art and sell it from my photos. I would have to spend tons of time mastering how to do this, and meanwhile,
all the other things sit and become clutter.

And there is another direction, there is being a teacher. I so enjoy interacting in this way.

Most recently a have been experiencing a lot of joy from
finally giving myself time to have a clear space, time to declutter.I never before gave myself that time to do this.

The price is so high to live galloping in all directions.

I really know that.

I am so grateful that I have clearned enough up to see the high cost.I am so grateful that even how difficult today was--
I sense my life is coming together in a beautiful new way.



 

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