Iron Pill

Date:   8/19/2016 12:51:53 AM ( 8 y ago)

Day 31, it's 3:30 - a windy and cooler day, still very warm for this time of year! First day home alone, I woke up not too bad, the house is much more peaceful - hadn't bathed in days so I started my day with a bit of spa :)

Made myself a facial mask with 1/2 a tiny avocado, some olive oil, honey and a bit of yesterday's leftover juice pulp & had a warm bath with the mask and a few cucumber slices for eyes - some epsom salt blend I made and then used the leftover mask and mixed it with a wonderful Balinese avocado hair mask I bought last time I was there - worked a good amount of the thick treatment thru my hair, up into a bun and had a sauna. Washed it all out afterwards in the still warm bath and wow, my skin and hair look and feel amazing.

Then I got dressed, cool new zombie tights, leg warmers, kidney warming woolen thing, top and purple poncho - had a morning cup of tea with my bath and with the sauna I drank a big glass of psyllium husk and water and the leftover pineapple/pear/coconut water and maca juice I made yesterday.

Played with my recording set up, discovering all sorts of wondrous new settings for a really great mic I'm finally getting to put to use -- and after a good session there, I got tired,
made a choc avocado milk with the other 1/2 of the tiny avo & lay down for a little

My mind is much clearer here alone, so much less stress going on for me, the perfect wording came easily to mind for the letter I had to send the executor so I wrote that, checked it by my sis who said yes and sent it off to him. Feels much better to have done something skillful and put it back on him to reply. Hate that feeling of worry and things hanging over you when you're not sure how to handle something important, scary and pressing.

It's still early in the day but its a grey windy one and it feels like a restful energy. I'm tired, I made my meal today - just had 2 small lamb chops and a serve of fried brown rice with egg, ginger, pepper, kale and celery chopped into it - I made enough rice that there's some left for the next meal and there's one chop left - I wasn't hungry at all, I did get a big headache tho, probably because I do have my period now, its very very light, only spotting really - day 3 of that, its good to get some iron into me - didn't eat anything yesterday except for a cup of popcorn and a couple dutch liqorice candies - I had a couple advil with some water before the meal and now the headaches gone, not sure if its the advil, the red meat or the combo - feel good, just a little low energy yesterday and today - like I get bursts of energy but run out a few times during the day after doing stuff.

I weighed myself for the first time in the journey today 163 lbs - pretty awesome -- its the low end of what I usually get to after a longer fast than this one - I think its the result of doing more fasting this year and not putting so much weight back on afterwards either. Overall, I feel I've lost weight and kept some of it off - as well as lost a lot of years, got my spring happening, re-gained energy - detoxed, developed deep new ways of living, developed a real effortlessness with my fasting.

Not sure what I'm going to do tonight - if I was bursting with energy I'd keep working with music, not sure I'll have enough but I might do some more of that this evening. Right now I think I'll lay down and get into some Hemisync and Hypnosis/Relaxation exercises - it's been ages since I've done them, they are really great - I used one last night falling asleep but passed out before it finished lol. That can happen :)

I'll juice a bit more tonight and keep drinking water - have been reading Rumi in the evenings and some sublime Dharma books - feeling a million times more myself today being here alone - it made me realize how dominating my friends energy is, how much it changes how I am and what I do when he's here. Wow, its nice when he's here but its difficult - being here on my own is just pure peace. I'd like to do a lot of meditation. Everything seems to easily become very harmonious, ordered and I'm able to magically get things done in such a peaceful way. It's something that needs to be addressed. More silence here and less drama. Something I need to write to him about and bring more of here when he is staying. Noble silence. Resting the mind. I've perhaps been tuning into and taking on a lot because he has a massive anxiety disorder and is very disturbed in his winds and energy much of the time. Now that I'm feeling this calm place - I should try to integrate that here in a more stable way as well as enjoy it now.



 

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